Ytd was quite ok.. watched harry potter.. it was ok.. but they kept jumping scenes.. didn't follow too nicely.. shin was as cute as ever.. she watched until she got confused.. haha.. questions came out after watching the show.. we didn't know where to go after the movie.. slowly, everyone started leaving until it's left with fi, jon n me.. decided to visit michele at the wake there and buy her something to munch on.. left close to 3.. was very tired when we left..

today is a very sucky day.. everyone left to church but me.. they didn't even ask me to go.. woke up at 8am to do my presentation.. they juz left the hse to go for church.. i dunno.. all i got was angry noises shouting all around me.. not directly at me but i know it's coz of me.. and i dun really feel a thing? it's like i'm immune abt it.. took out my earphones to plug into windows media player.. didn't wanna hear what's going on.. at this rate, i think i'm gonna be deaf, not partially deaf anymore. ya, i came home late last nite, i already told them that i'm gonna be late. they didn't even bother calling me last nite or even asking me where i went..

when are pple gonna learn that they juz have to ask me and i'll tell them whatever they need to know from me? except from lung exercise. i dun have any secrets to keep from them what. being like this, reminds me of the time when my mum said that i'm like a walking machine at home.. unfeelingness.. i admit.. i dunno how to be myself at home.. how can i be? i'm only permitted to show one emotion(happy) anyway.. so what's the use.. when i put on a straight face, i get scolding too coz i look as though i dun care.. how do u wan me to react?

i really dunno. how am i supposed to react when i get scolding from my parents? surely i can't laugh or smile. so i put on a straight face. last time i did that before today.. i got slapped coz of that. what do u guys wan? i cry, u tell me to stop crying. i get pissed, u tell me to stop glaring at u. i dun show any emotions, u tell me that i have a bad attitude and am cold person..

i'm getting tired.. dun force me to go for the european cruise where i only come back for 2 weeks per yr.. i might juz do that.