can't wait to leave for thailand tmw.. i really need a break.. guess to let u darlings know what time, it's 9pm... will be meeting fi first.. we haven't seen each other for the longest time.. T_T

i juz feel so tired, u know.. of life, of everything.. (dun worry, i won't kill myself) it's juz draining all my energy away.. i badly need to recharge my batteries.

one thing i really dun understand is why is max still hurting me even though we have already broke up and now are frens.. why muz he do this to me.. he msged me a few days ago.. and we talked for a while. then i asked him if i could meet him after my trip. he didn't reply, so i thought he was busy n msged him again the next day. he still didn't reply. so i msged saying that it's ok if he doesn't wan to meet me.. he still didn't reply. i'm so sad, u know.. i msged him yesterday asking him if he seriously doesn't wanna meet me.. he still didn't reply.. why is he hurting me again n again?

is this what all men tend to do after they have broken up with their gfs? disappear from their lives?