freak...

today's meeting totally sucked.. was meeting frens at town today.. decided to go with cinz n mich as they were going to town as well... stopped over at mich's hse then we went to town together...

i wasn't really excited to go due to some reasons but sooner or later, i guess i had to deal with it..
the air was damn uncomfortable when i met them.. the sense of awkardness was very overwhelming.. she kept on smsing n talking on the fone while i was talking to another fren n staring into blank space.

we went to delifrance for dinner.. was eating halfway when my fren got very uncomfortable and started why i am angry with that person. i dunno what to say, man... maybe one reason was that i was not expected to be questioned today.. when she said that, i totally lost sense.. juz said that i was hungry, i wanted to eat my dinner and didn't want to talk abt it. i'm like what do u want me to say?!

hate to admit it but it'll be a long time before we can be normal again.. fuck.. i lost all feelings already.. i dun even know why the hell i'm angry with her already. tried to reason with my fren after she left us, but shit! suddenly, everything dun make sense anymore..

why am i so angry? what's the real reason why i am so pissed? i really dunno.... maybe i do, but it's hard to say? am i being reasonable? i dunno man.. do i feel neglected that's why i'm angry? am i angry coz she didn't contact me? am i angry coz she thought i was angry?

how did things become so bad? what am i doing? did i feel awkward coz she was like that to me today? i hate this.. i dun even know what to say to her anymore.. can't she make the first move to talk? why muz it be me? am i being too stubborn?

so many qns.. need alot of answers.. feel like shit...