Darkness

noone will ever know how much i'm scared of darkness..

when the nite falls.. lying on my bed.. when everything becomes quiet.. and i can't slp.. my real self will tend to come out.. how i hate the real me.. the vulnerable me.. one who can't get back to slp when she has a nightmare, has to reply on someone to keep her company while she falls back to slp.. and when there's no one? she has to cry herself to slp... i really hate that side of me..

that's not the only reason..

darkness has let me see the ugly side of my parents over the yrs.. scares the shit out of me.. memories that i wish i could erase from my head forever..

if only i could...