I have never hated myself so much before.

I have lied to alot of pple this week that it makes me so sick to the core. I have never lied so much in my life before.

What i'm doing is wrong. and i wish i never stepped into the shit in the first place.

Please don't ask me what happened coz i dun wish to lie anymore.

I feel so sick and horrible inside and i can't tell anyone abt it.

Now i know why i wanna leave Conrad so much.

It's not coz of the work or the workload.

It's because i'm tired of being involved and i'm tired of lying.

I tried to be supportive coz they're my frens..

but yet, i know deep down inside that i'm going against my principals.

I juz wanna move on with my life.