I really dunno how much more i can take..

I slept at 5am on Sat morning, woke up at close to 1pm.. then.. i couldn't sleep until 12noon today (sun).. almost the same as last week..

and then my l'l sis had to piss me off coz she tried waking me up at 3pm.. couldn't get up coz i was feeling giddy.. then she had to pass some stupid comment when i told her not to disturb me coz i slept at 12 noon. she said this.. "no one forced u to stay up so late what"..

crap.. do u think i have nth else better to do with my life than stay awake in the night while everyone is asleep? i really wanna have a good sleep at night but i can't. how did it become that i forced myself to stay awake. Not as though the shows at night are damn interesting.. i wish i can slp at 10 plus 11pm.. coz ur body organs recuperates at different timings at night that's why u shouldn't stay up too late. but what choice do i have?

if someone said that i could have one wish.. i would wish that i could slp soundly at night for the rest of my life..

and u know..

maybe i'm not meant to be too happy.. the 3 happiest days of my life always end up turned into something devastating by the end of the day. the third one that happened recently reminded me of the 2 other incidents.. why muz it be like this?

sigh..