Gawd.. I'm juz sick n tired of these kinda stuff, man.. it's so Sec 3..

I juz can't believe pple still do these kinda things esp when they aren't exactly getting any younger. I juz wanted to help, that's all.. how did things become like this? What am i? A slave? An object? What, man? I can't make decisions on my own? I can't help whoever i wanna help? How did baking of a cake got me into such stuff? Seriously, did i do anything wrong? And how could u actually say that someone that i actually trust said that to you? I express interest? Ya.. i express interest in showing u my arse. You know what? Forget it. I dun wanna help anyone anymore. I won't go back there ever again. Never again. I dun wanna care anymore. All coz i dunno how to say no? is that why all these happen? Fine. i will learn how to say no from now on.. It's that is what it takes, i will do it. Someone told me that i should learn to think for myself and stop thinking abt others. I dun owe them anything. I'm really tired.. i really am.. I dunno who to trust anymore. Sometimes pple ask me why i dun wanna share with them my probs that are really bothering me inside.. it's coz i know even if i say it out, no one will be able to help me.. What's the pt of saying then? I might as well juz keep it in. Like i told someone.. I dun show anyone that i'm depressed, so i dun have to share. If i do wanna share, i'll definitely share with alot of pple.

What i'm doing or trying to do is really very very simple. I'm juz trying to survive on this world. Is that so hard to ask for?

And Fun..? I'm really sorry abt ur ear. I wish i could do something to ease the pain or make it less swollen but i really dunno what to do.. if it closes, i'll pay for the next one, k? pls let me lessen the guilt that i have..