i'm so irritated....


today, when i came to work, there was this "P" girl lying near my locker.. i didn't really care at her until her other "P" girl came n she started crying n talking to her fren in their lang.. n i was like wtf? first i tot that it was coz of work.. then i was like ok la... understandable.. then, i realised that it was only cramps.. -_-'' gawd.. do u really need to cry coz of cramps.. ok.. i know it's damn pain n all, but wth? go home n cry la... annoying..


then, i started thinking abt work.. anyone is thinking for themselves now.. i'm so sick n tired of working my butt off everyday, covering shifts, covering other pple's work coz they're on leave n yet..

they can complain that they have put in more work than the rest and then they're damn tired. kns la.. i haven't gone for a hol or even a short break in like wat, 2-3 mths? my energy is draining up and i never did complain to them n yet.. they kept on complaining that they have alot of work to do.. then what am i doing? shaking leg in one corner ah?

my boss is so stressed until her hair is turning white.. she works from morning till late at night.. she came in on sat when she dun even need to coz she has so many things to do.. but she never did complain..

what happened man.. ever since tarcy n grace left, it has gone haywire.. it's so depressing working here sometimes coz nth seems to last very long..

i dunno what to say.. maybe i juz need slp..

i juz wanna be depressed n not go out n not talk to anyone.. i juz wanna be left alone for awhile.. without any care abt others..

another week has passed..

before going to details.. i have to say something..

THANKS SHIRLEY!!! for the lovely koala bear, the nougats, milk flavourings n donut.. :) i LOVE everything that u bought for me... heehee.. :)

and i realised that they dun have bright pink in the font colour option... how is that possible?!!?! hmph.. kns..

okie.. back to the week events..

we are finally full forced @ work already!!!! haha.. it haven't been like this since tarcy n grace left.. but... 4 of them are still new.. so the old birds (d, bao n me) gotta endure until our darling babies are matured.. :) it's tough coz i'm the arrival checker n i wanna kill them for making me touch up every sgl booking they do.. but.. they're still new n i was once like this.. so.. i'm enduring as much as i can..

talking abt enduring..

u guys should know how much patience i have, right.. i have to admit that my tolerance level is in the high region.. *u guys better not be roll eyes rite now* but for the past few days, i really have this tendency to kill this guy who is undergoing mgmt training.

He is here for 2 wks n he's sitting next to me coz he's attached to me for training.. omg.. i wanna kill him by the 2nd day.. he's so f-ing irritating la.. annoying.. kept on pissing me off until i didn't wanna talk to him.. i'll juz teach him a little during the day n then he would key in the corp rates into the sys or call the secs for the gtd.. i have to pretend that i'm damn tired *ok.. i wasn't pretending* or damn busy *not really actually* so that he won't talk to me..

BUT.. he wld say like.. "oh clara, why r u so quiet today?" i wld reply/mumble "oh.. slept late.. damn tired.. dun feel like talking" then he would be like oh. u need to have a long break blah blah.. gd think u're quitting.. blah blah.. are u really gonna study or u juz wanna get out of here.. blah blah.. my gawd.. which part of "damn tired, dun feel like talking" does he not understand?

then he wld look at what i'm doing.. then he wld say.. why do u highlight this? why do u tick the names? why do u separate the papers to 2 portions? why dun u file the other portion? is the other portions for other dates? why do u place the other portions on that side, not the other side of the table? OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CAN HE SHUT UP N LEAVE ME ALONE?!!!

last yr, when i saw him @ rm service, i thot he was damn annoying already coz he wld stop us each time to chk on the stupid rm rates.. but.. i forgot that it was him until the 3rd day of his attachment with us..

best part?

bao n d knew that it was him the moment he stepped into our dept.. that's why they attached him to me n they took the new girls instead... kns!!!!

i feel so loved..

sigh..

the shithead has another week with us.. hopefully, he won't be dead or.. i won't be dead by then.. i really feel like stabbing him..

someone.. GIVE me strength!!

Sigh


I've always gotten what i wan since young.. but the diff was.. when i was young, the things i demanded were peanuts.. but now.. even though i wan it and i've already gotten it.. it doesn't mean that i can have it.

I know u guys dunno what the hell i'm talking abt.. but it's ok.. I juz dun wanna talk abt it anymore...

For the past few weeks... i've been going home late everyday.. i can't take it anymore. i feel like cancelling all my appointments to sleep at home..

I can't stand anti-social pple.. but at the same time, sometimes i am anti-social too.. i hate it when my brain knows tat i should not be upset or angry with an anti-social person but yet.. my heart feels another way.. so dun be an anti-social person k? haha..

Anyway... i wasn't upset or angry when mich blurted out that she saw Max.. i was juz surprised that she still remember how he looks like.. coz seriously, i've forgotten how he looks like..

I dunno why, nowadays, i've lost the interest to know or tell pple abt my life.. i juz dun feel like talking abt my life or how i feel abt stuffs.. i lost the interest to share.. i'm juz so tired... i dun feel like talking anymore..