Mama n mum came back ytd afternoon from bkk.. thank goodness!!! [if u know what i mean] and they bought like 4 plants back.. who buys plants on their overseas trip, man.. -_-'''

So i had to follow my mum to the plant nursery.. [i know i'm a flower killer, but i was forced to go there! no flowers/plants were harmed in the process though, i maintained a distance from them]
i nearly became a snowman coz she wanted to buy some flowers to decorate the house and we had to go to the freezer-like place to choose the flowers.. it was freaking cold, man!! and my darling mum had to choose the coldest spot to have a long conversation with me on how to decorate the house.. i wanted to move but i was feeling too cold.. [exactly like how i refused to move at all and became a statue at eski bar] after what seemed like forever to me.. we finally left the place.. :) then we had to buy a pot and some soil back home too..

and today...

My parents went to bkk!!!!! Yay!!! freedom!!!! until next tues.. :) heehee.. i juz LOVE the beginning of the year.. :)

MISSING PERSON

If found, pls notify me as soon as possible..

If possible, kindly ask her to return my MSN msgs or send me an email or something.

Last seen/heard: 16 February 2008

She is missed greatly.

Thank you all for your kind assistance.

I'm so pissed right now that i seriously can't be bothered how you feel when u read this..

I have tried my best to be there for you. Esp when u really needed someone to be there. When u were really down and out, i tried to accompany you whenever i could and listen to you talk abt what happened over and over again.

I never asked anything of you. I never made you do anything that you didn't want to do. Even when i didn't really encourage what you did or wanted to do, i stood by you coz i wanted you to be happy.

Even when you started to change, distant yourself away from me, i didn't say anything abt it. Yes, u may say that i've changed too. Seriously, whatever. Is it wrong of spend time with my other frens. Why can't i chose who i wanna spend time with? Doesn't mean that i spent less time with someone means that i have changed. How many times do u actually want me to repeat that?

Right now, all i can say is... If you're upset or angry with me, tell me. Tell it to my bloody face.

Dun try to get back at me by being sarcastic to me.. I hate that. Once is fine, twice is ok.. Dun do it again and again. Trying to use words to pierce me and expect me to be fine after that. I told u i hate pple being sarcastic to me. I have pple doing that to me at home. I dun need my frens to do that to me too.

I may be nice, i can be tolerant to your behaviour. But there is a limit to it. Dun think that coz i heart you that much means that you can do/say whatever you want. Sometimes, i really wonder what you treat me as. I really do. And sometimes, i really wonder whether you do listen to whatever i'm saying.

Dun say sorry to me after you have read this. I dun need it.

Cinz left last night..

Sad.. Feel lost without her..

Sigh.. I miss her...

The long wait begins..

Till i see her again..

Guess wat? We are both sick juz now [ i passed it to her, then she passed it back to me]

That little bugger.. come back soon, k? dun make me wait too long..

Finally... i can load the photos.. :)

Monday, 11th Feb 2008

Went for a manicure..

Fen - Metallic Beige, Cinz - Baby Pink, Mine - Metallic Red

Bored in the bus to Night Safari

Finally reached our destination.. :)

The flash was too bright for fenny's eyes.. after many attempts to open her eyes, she decided to choose this method.. hahha.. --->

On the suspension bridge..

In the Night Safari toilet..

It was a fun night at the Night Safari.. Though, there was a little boo-boo.. But in the end, everything turned out well.. :) After which, we went to AMK's Mac for supper.. Then, we went home.. feeling satisfied but tired.. :D

Tuesday, 12th Feb 2008

We met up at Bishan for chit-chat session

Jimmy came too.. but he left after awhile coz he was tired..

Bored in the cab.. Think Fenny was busy with her fone or something..

Reached Crystal Jade where we met up with Jon, Fi, Mich n Jia Hao..

Apparently, Cinz love the peanuts and lemon barley.. :)

And after dinner, we went to Cold Rush for ice-creams.. then, headed to my fav place.....

Finally got to drink my kilkenny.. *Yay*

After awhile, no one wanna let me take pics of them.. :(

See.. how sad.. :(

Upon seeing them avoiding my camera, mr "good morning" decided to show them how to take a pic.. :)

Wednesday, 13th Feb 2008

Met Chee Chor to go for the lunch with Von & Fun

My Darlingz... :)

Michelle & Ryan

Alicia Wong.. :)

Escargots for appetizers..

After having lunch with them, Chee Chor & I left to HMV to change our earrings..

Then, I met up with Cinz and Kev at Sim Lim to buy her Ipod Nano and digital camera..

Kev brought us to this place where they had really good beef rice.. it's real yummy!! :)

Satisfied Kev

Satisfied Us.. :)

After that, we went to C.K Tang to buy Steph's pressie and then to Border's to buy Kev's dad's book..

We went to chill at Mac for awhile before heading home..

Thursday, 14th Feb 2008

Fenny & I met first to buy Cinz' valentine's day pressie.. :) Then, we met up with her and had dinner at Sushi Teh..

Damn Cute, rite.. :)

After taking this pic, they went to the toilet for the longest time.. knowing them.. something was up.. and i was RIGHT.. I ended up having this for my valentine's day pressie.. :)

Damn huge and cute.. Got alot of stares from pple..

Hungry for Sushi too.. :)

So all these while, when we were there, there was this chef in the kitchen who kept looking at our direction through the glass window and laughed when he saw our pressies.. -_-'' in the end, he even asked us to take a pic for him and his fren.. haha.. wth, man.. -_-''

After that, i needed to pee.. and Cinz couldn't stop laughing when i went into the cubicle..

Coz..

See my legs sticking out.. haha..

Cam-whoring on our way to MS..

Fenny's valentine's day pressies..

Cinz' valentine's dat pressies

My valentine's day pressies.. :)

&

Last but not least..

Kev's valentine's day pressie.. hahaha..

Oh.. let me show u what happens when flowers end up in my hands.. -_-'''

Nice Rose..

After which, it will become...

Sigh.. i think i can juz resign to being called the "Flower Killer".. -_-''

Please dun ever buy me flowers.. haha..

I hate the internet..

I wanted to load the pics that i have taken since monday on friendster and it refuses to load..

I wanted to blog with the pics.. and it refuses to load..

I give up.. have been trying to do this for the past 3 hrs..

Crappy.

First day of chinese new year.. Met Cinz first at Bishan in the evening and went to P.S to play arcade. Then at abt 9 something, we walked to Somerset to meet tyler and fenny.. Went to Kbox and sang till 1 something and talked for awhile before heading home..

Second day of chinese new year.. Met fun and von first before going to P.S to meet Joyce for chit-chat session.. After which, Joyce left for home and we went for dinner at Jack's Place.. Decided that we still wanna hang.. so we went to indoor stadium there to sit and drink and talked abt everything under the sun [oops, moon].. Went home at abt 1 something..

Third day of chinese new year.. Met Sha n david for dinner at Sushi Teh [annual meeting].. ate too much (as usual) and had tea/coffee at starbucks before heading home.. Went home at abt 9 plus.. supposed to meet fun for drinks but it didn't fall through.. but it is good in a way coz i haven't been home so early in a long time for a saturday.. :)

It has been a great chinese new year so far.. :) have to do visiting tmw, though.. damn.. dun like to socialize with strangers nowadays.. sigh.. have to put on my fake smile.. how crappy..

Monday, we'll be going to night safari coz cinz wanna go there.. can't wait.. perhaps i should stay over at her place to talk crap all night.. haha.. at least there won't be any jigsaw puzzle that she wants me to complete for her.. she's so evil.. the last time i stayed over at her place, she refused to let me rest coz she wanted me to complete it.. kept hitting me with her stupid mahjong stick massager.. that abuser.. haha..

Anyway, i decided not to care whether anyone might get upset after reading my blog [actually long time ago, but i was too lazy to blog abt stuffs that happened] it's my life and it's my choice who i wanna hang out with or do whatever i wan.. why should i care so much for? sometimes, i think i care too much abt other people's feelings.. [thick-skinned.. haha]

Oh.. i miss going to wala's for shirlynn and the unxpected.. even brandon's awful singing.. haha.. though they won't be singing juz for today and next week.. but it's juz weird la.. sigh.. i will juz have to get through it by listening to my mp3.. juz realized that i haven't had my kils since last sat too.. sigh..

well...

i'm off to join my "shhh.... i'm thinking" sis to watch telly.. :) enjoy the remaining days of cny, peeps.. collect as much ang baos as possible k? tata..

p.s

i swear one of these days, i'm gonna kill volder/happy new year.. freaking annoying the crap out of me.. argh.. *pissed*

With my mum's advice in mind.. Throw away everything that u haven't touched in years.. I did my spring cleaning today, it's amazing how much dust can be accumulated over a few years... [dun eeww me k.. u guys dun do spring cleaning often too.. :P]

While cleaning, i saw letters, pics n pressies from like 6-7 years ago n without my mum's knowledge, i kept them with my box of letters.. Thought abt the lovely past.. abt how innocent we were in our thinking and all.. sigh, my gawd.. how much things have changed over the years.. it's freaking scary..

In the end, i threw out 5 big plastic bags worth of stuffs and i finally went through the stuffs that i brought home on my last day of work in conrad.. Displayed my Mr. Potato, and the bottle of seashells on my table.. :)

Had a little flea market too.. we all displayed all the things that we wanna throw away but still reusable or new and we will take whatever we fancy.. that's the nice part of having sisters.. haha..

Well...

Now i am ready to begin 2008. Ready for changes.. i have let go all the things that i have been clinging on for so long.. :) [except for the box of letters.. that's a BIG no-no.. never gonna throw that away..]

Happy Chinese New Year, peeps.. :)

Edited

Went over to a fren's house to chill with a couple of frens today [sunday]..

It was fun.. Ate instant noodle with luncheon meat [very rare these days], fried eggs and kim chi.. Dyed frens' hair for them, played games and chilled in front of the telly watching "sex in the city" dvds till midnight..

It was very relaxed and juz being in the company of frens that i can have alot of fun with..

As i was taking the cab home, after sending my other fren off, i passed by Adam's road.. Each time i pass by there, i get reminded of an arsehole who stays there.. [unfortunately] then when we passed over the condemned place, i had to see his "dream home" too.. felt nauseous and had the urge of setting the place on fire..

Anyway.. it got me thinking about alot of things after that.. Kinda added up from topics that were brought up on sat with my usual and today's topics at my fren's place.. "sex in the city" helped too..

One thing is for sure is that one more time someone asks me when i'm gonna have a bf or why i dun wanna go with happy new year/volder.. i am gonna kill that person..

This is seriously madness. I am only 24 this yr.. what's the big hurry? am i bothering pple? do i look pathetic by myself? do i have to throw myself at someone who says that he likes me? for goodness' sake, let go pple.. i thot i had already said earlier how i felt abt pple asking me to get a bf..

Hello.. I ain't complaining, why should u guys be?

And i am not gonna choose happy new year/volder.. so what if he is nice to me? so what if he is sweet to me? Do i have to be with him juz coz of those reasons?

gawd.. i wan someone that i can communicate with.. not someone that i can only talk face to face coz he confuses me each time we talk over msn, or phone calls or sms.. drives me crazy each time i'm trying to figure out what the hell he's talking abt..

i wan someone that can take most of my crap and not try to piss me off every 5 mins.. i wan someone who can take care of me.. i am tired of taking care of pple.. i wan someone who dun behave more like a girl than i am.. oh pls.. i feel more manly than him..

Isn't these reasons good enough for pple to know why i'm not gonna be with him?

Yeah.. i am scared of being single at the age of 40 with no family to call my own.. i am scared when i think that all my frens might get married and settle down..

But this kinda thing takes time.. I dun wanna rush into things juz because i am scared of being alone..

So leave me alone peeps.. spare me, pls.. I got more things on my mind than think about relationships now. Doesn't mean that i dun share what's going on in my life right now means everything is rosy right now.. N pls dun ask what they are coz i dun intend to share with anyone. I'm sorry but i know that i have to face it sooner or later and i can handle by myself.

I know u guys care alot for me and i love u guys loads too.. So i hope that u guys can understand..

Wanted to blog quite a bit..

But kinda got lazy to blog all abt it..

Though i do have something to say..

I'm not that complicated. I am a simple person. Stop thinking that i have a motive in doing things. I don't.. It is actually very simple. Try looking at things at a simpler point of view.. Perhaps then, u guys won't be too hard on yourselves.

If you guys can't see things from my point of view.. I'm very approachable. Ask and you shall get your answer. As simple as that..

I'm not avoiding anyone, neither am i distanting myself from anyone. Stop making things so complicated and stop reading too much into stuffs. Please.. Nothing is happening.

Gawd.. Is it me or more pple are feeling that way abt me?

Sigh.. what the hell is going on?