Finally!!!

after months of anticipation.. reading someone's blog until i can confirm that it is true.. finally!! i have a break-through!!!!!! i have something new to bitch about now!!! hahaha.. supper, fi n mich?!!?! i got juicy juicy news!!!! hahahahah


anyway..

the flu bug has caught me.. damnit...

i juz dun understand..

after all that we have been through.. after all the consoling and friendship that we had in the past.. doesn't it count?

i juz dun understand..

how could u chose to contact some idiot who has only been close to you for one or two yrs in sch over someone who has been ur fren since sec two..

i juz dun understand..

how could u not contact someone who has been on your side throughout the school days

i juz dun understand..

how can u pretend that someone never existed after all that person has done to make u happy when u were down

i juz dun understand..

dun our frenship mean anything to u

i juz dun understand..

how can u not miss me when i have missed u after all these yrs

i juz dun understand..

seeing your face in someone else's friendster photos makes me wonder why i value ur frenship at all..

i juz dun understand..

hahaa..

i juz had to share this.. i can't laugh alone.. :D

this morning, when i was half-awake... i heard this conversation bet. my grandmama n my mum..

grandmama: i decided to clean clara's table ytd.. so messy.. and i found a photo on her table..
mum: is it?
grandmama: ya.. it's a guy, maybe her bf
mum: where is the photo?
[a little pause.. i think my grandmama passed her the photo and my mum was looking at it]
mum: erhm.. ma.. it's a girl..

sooo.. when my grandma came back to our room, i went to see which photo she was looking at.. guess who? ahahahahaa..

Ans: when cinz went to take her cv photo, i took one for me to keep.. so now when i can't see her coz she's so freaking far far away, i placed her photo on the top shelf of my table..

u know i still heart u, cinz.. hahahaha..

Hmmmm..

It has been weeks since i left work.. but.. i have not gone near or even unpacked the things that i brought back from work..

i dunno man.. maybe it's denial.. i juz can't bring myself to unpack yet.. i dun wanna feel depressed.. i really miss hanging out during lunch wz Ailing, Von, Suelyn or even Don.. sigh.. of coz my breaks with Ryan and the rest of the gang.. I miss all the laughter and fun that i used to have everyday..

yes... work was f**ked up to the core..
yes... i looked like crap everyday..
yes... even aud said that i look more radiant now..

But..

i miss the freedom that was given to me
i miss the love that was given to me
i miss the frens that accompanied me everyday

i was talking to Mich on the fone the other night.. we were flipping through our yearbook.. *not gonna say the real reason why we were looking thru it*.. we started talking abt school days and the "wars" we had..

then stupid mich had to leave me dumbfound for awhile when she said that i looked more happy and cheerful in the pic than now..

Anyway..

I went to look for mich to lunch on Monday..

she was gonna meet fie @ night to pass him his bday prez and since it has been such a long time since i last saw fie.. we decided to meet to chit chat for awhile... Gawd.. i waited for mich to finish work for like 5 hrs?! in tiny compasspoint.. i nearly wanted to faint from boredom and coldness.. it was freezing and i had to entertain myself.. :(

when finally, i saw her.. i nearly teared coz i never waited for someone for so long before in a tiny place.. T-T

Tues, i rested @ home coz i didn't sleep well at nite..

Wed.. i met up wz Tracy for Lunch @ Din Tai Fung.. Haven't seen her in ages, man.. and guess who i bumped into @ Raffles city? Joyce.. :) my darling.. which i promised to meet her next week..

We chilled and hanged until 8 plus coz i was gonna meet up wz Fenny and Aud for drinks @ abt 8.30.. thank goodness, don called..so we met up for awhile.. and Tracy left for her movie date. and it was so obvious that she wanted to leave me.. but at the same time, she didn't wanna leave me alone.. hahaha.. so don accompanied me till fenny n aud arrived.

oh! while waiting for the girls to arrive, i saw ethan.. :) he still behaves the same.. as cheeky as ever.. :) arranged to meet up soon as well.

Fenny, Aud n i went to the New Asia Bar.. i had alot of fun with them.. :D

Today..

Woke up @ 3 plus.. didn't slp well again.. was woozy until late morning..

Fri..

Gonna meet don for lunch n acc him to sch to hand up his report.. and then, meet char n the rest of the girls for dinner to look @ the wedding photos and catch up..
might meet von, suelyn n ailing for drinks after that as well..


Next week..

Gonna meet joyce for dinner..
Gotta meet Kev to pass him the fish tank and the rest.. *I am not buying sand for u*

Maybe.. meet Ethan, siti and elaine for dinner
Maybe.. meet dav n sha for dinner
Maybe.. meet Ethan n sha for dinner

ALot of maybes..

Yawn.. i wanna go n watch tv already..

talk to u guys soon..

p.s

Cinz, i miss u loads... every single day..