Feeling like shit lately...

I miss my bummer life

Feeling lost lately...

What am i gonna do abt my life?

Have to move on...

It's time for a new beginning...

i have no courage...

But

I have to leave sooner or later...

Can someone tell me what to do...

I think i need therapy...

Annual D&D
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My fren n i were thinking of what to wear for our upcoming D&D.. The theme is Casino Royale.. So last nite, we finally came up with what to wear!! so exciting.. :)

Then, we were in the cab home, my fren suddenly turn to me and said.. "dun u think that we'll look like someone?" and i was like "who??".. Then she said, "dun your u-know-who dress up like that for work?" and i'm like.. "oh my gawd, yeah!!" then i can go n tell him that i got the inspiration from him.. hahahahah...

Speaking of which..

Sometimes, i wish he would be more open towards me.. it's so hard to talk to him.. Sigh.. and when he does wanna talk, he asks stupid things.. like calling me back to his desk to ask me if his stupid flowers is nice and when i said it was, he juz smile n said i think so too.. and i walked off.. what kinda conversation is this?!

Men.. dun understand them..

Alot of emotions have been building up inside me recently..

Coz of who?

Who else?

My Dad..

He's mad.. Juz like what kev said..

What else is there to say?

Except...

Whoever came up with this phrase...

HOME SWEET HOME

is a lier..

It's bullshit

Had a sucky week for work..

Had a happy day which was on wed...

But overall.. It has been depressing..

Each day when i see him, he's depressed coz of work.. and i can't talk to him coz he doesn't wanna talk or he's in a hurry to go somewhere.. can only catch glimpse of him now n then...

He stopped by at my desk ytd.. like he wanted to ask me something... but coz grace was with me, talking to me abt work.. he left after looking at his hp.. probably something shitty happened again..-_-'''

Made him laugh when we took the train together on wed.. which was good coz i haven't seen him smile or laugh in a while..

I really dunno what to do to cheer him up.. all i can think of is what i did today before i left work.. i drew him a smiley face on a cardboard and wrote a little msg for him.. he said it made his day.. i'm glad.. though i know it's only gonna be for today..

Sigh.. running out of ideas to make him happy... Someone told me to pray for him.. haha..

I wan him to be happy each day... Is that really that hard to ask for?