I can't wait for next week.. sunday is gonna be a wonderful day!! :)

gonna start off with going for morning mass with hubby.. yay!! :)

then we'll join sha for lunch..

and then meet fi n mich for dinner to celebrate part one of her birthday..

anyway, hub.. i can't wait to go for mass with u!! i can show u "harry potter look-alike"...heehee.. and i can show u some pple i dun wanna see during mass but i always happen to see..

Dun feel like talking abt anything..

Won't call..

Won't email..

Won't msg..

I'll juz see u for ur bday thingy, fi..

But dun ask me anything, k?

I juz want to celebrate ur bday for u.

I decided not to pretend to close one eye when I see something i dun wish to see..

I've seen enough..

I've been hurt enough..

Enough is Enough..

Rite, mich?

Had dinner with sales dept tonight at jumbo seafood restaurant..

Before i share what happened.. shall tell u guys who are the pple involved..

* Grace - the senior that i'm closest to in reservations..

* Poh Chin - another senior that is motherly and fun to talk with

* Ailing - my senior who is my trainer and confidante in my shitty life

* Amanda - the cutie-pie of reservations

* Mr G - our GM

* Charlene - she doesn't need intro, rite? haha..

anyway.. a few days ago... during lunch with poh chin n grace, Mr G came to join us.. and we started talking abt weddings and all (grace juz got married) and then he turned to me n said that i still have a long way to go.. so i joked that i was gonna be a nun.. (reservations pple calls me "nun" these few days n u guys should know y) and then Mr G thought that i was being serious! and he started talking abt his fren who's a nun and he even gave me her name n where she's located at and asked me to look for her... -_-''' and he wrote her name on his namecard so that i won't forget...

sooooo...

on our way there, poh chin n grace jokingly said that Mr G will definitely sit with us coz he knows i wanna be a nun and he wanna tell me more things abt it.. so i was like.."noooo.. he won't.. "

and what happened????

when he came... he was gonna sit next to me... -_-''' poh chin, grace and amanda started laughing their heads off and i was laughing too like nobody's biz.. and then he was like.. "oh.. u're shy that i'm sitting next to u?" then he asked someone else to exchange seats with him.. so pai seh!!! but still at the same table though..

then, dinner was very rushed.. coz he was sitting with us.. haha.. and amanda n i became the "victims" coz whatever food are extras or leftover, Mr G will ask us to eat coz we're the youngest and that we are still growing kids.. (i wanted to tell him that i'll grow sideways.. but i decided to shut up) and we ended up eating alot.. -__-''' and i got pricked by the crab!!! 0_o.. bled again.. poh chin, grace n amanda wanted to roll away coz i've been injuring myself non-stop since i went to work.. haha

anyway.. that was dinner.. was alright.. but could be better if char came along. she had dance lessons with her cute coach.. haha *wink wink*

anyway..

grace's husband thot that i was a guy coz grace calls me "fernandez" and she gave me a morning call today..

and..

some stupid gst thought that i was a guy too.. i replied his email and he replied back.."Thank you sir.." i wanted to cry.. -_-''

and i became more drama mama.. all grace's fault. coz she's the drama queen in our dept and she's always fake crying.. and i learnt that from her.. -_-'''

and..

shimin's leaving for vietnam tmw.. oh ya! she's the other person in the room and she's damn cute!! hahah. i will miss her lunch call.. she always reminds us to eat by saying loudly "chi fun le".. in her cute voice.. sigh.. miss her already.. ahha..

Two songs for the guy i like

Love Show by skye

Sit down, give me your hand
I'm gonna tell you the future
I see you, living happily
With somebody who really suits ya
Someone like me

Stand still
Breath in
Are you listening

You don't know
Somebody's aching
Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go
Of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show

Break down.. Give me some time
I don't want the fear to confuse ya
Right now, it's so wrong
But maybe it's all in the future with
Someone like you

Stand still.. Breath in
Are you listening

You don't know
Somebody's aching.
Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go
Of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show

Maybe truth, maybe lies
Made me want you
Maybe dumb, maybe wise
I don't know

Somebody's aching
Keeping it all in
Somebody won't let go
Of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show

You don't know
Somebody's hurting
Holding it all in
Somebody can't let go
Of his heart but the truth is
It's painless
Letting your love show

Love show
Letting your love show

Fools Like Me by Lisa Loeb

Everybody go
The party's over
I want to be alone in my head
In my bed tonight
You never show

You must really love her
You think I don't know
But I do, yeah it's true
I think over is over

I'm right back where
I started (when it comes to wanting you)
I can't have what I wanted

[Chorus]
But I did, I can I was, I am
Only human, living, dying
Just like any fool who ever breathed
If love is blind
If love's a drug
It always is
It always was and
Love was surely made for fools like me

I know where I'm going
I'm tripping I'm sliding around
That's ok
At least I'm excited
It wasn't how I planned it
(wasn't how I planned it
Feet are where I landed
At least I understand it now)
My feet are where I landed
(feet are staying on the ground)
[Chorus]

Fools like me
Fools like me

I did, I can
I was, I am
Only human, living, dying
Just like any fool who ever breathed

Maybe it's the sanest thing
Or just the sweetest kind of dream
But love was surely made for fools
(Love was surely made for fools)
Love was surely made for fools
(Love was surely made for fools)
Love was surely made for fools like me

Lost track of all the days already..

only can rest in peace on sundays..

Thot that i meet fi today.. but we have our own things to do..

Someone got upset when i said i hate coke.. -_-'''

People think that i'm dumb..

Colleagues can't stop laughing at me for the stupid things i did..

my senior knocked my head when i told her what i did recently and said that i was so stupid..

sigh..

Haven't been feeling good for the past few days

Even my colleagues commented on it..

All of them asked what happened coz i dun seem to be myself..

Normally i would joke and laugh out loud.. and talk non-stop...

I juz dun have the mood anymore..

Dun have the mood for anything..

Even if someone made me laugh or cheer me up

it's only for that sec, min, hr...

Not gonna change anything at all..

Getting depressed...

SIGH..

Need To Hide For Awhile...


Maybe days.. weeks... months...


I dunno..

A fren woke me up after talking to her abt some stuffs today..

Maybe if i immerse myself in work, i'll feel better and stronger...

I dunno...

Got this from Ms Cinz...

The thing is, you're supposed to randomly fill up numbers 1-20 with names of people that come into your mind n den answer the questions dat follow:-


1. Fi
2.Mich
3.Jon
4.Kev
5.Cinz
6.Fen
7.Hubby
8. Sha
9.Ivan
10.Char
11.Joyce
12.Don
13.Shir
14.Hui
15.Penny
16.Liwen
17.Baby Shin
18.Von
19.Nad
20.Vic


-how did u 1st meet 13 ?

In Conrad - Oscar's.. We started talking when she spilled water all over a gst and i went to help her.. haha..

-wad would u do if u had never met 5 ?

I will never know my bitchy half.. haha.. *wink wink*

-wad do u honestly think of 10 ?

She's so cute!! u guys should meet her.. of coz mich has already met her... :)

-would 19 and 20 go out?

Honestly?? i dun think so.. vic is too introvert.. -_-'''

-have u ever liked 9?

*choke* Ivan?!!?! he's practically a girl.. haha..

-if number 1 dies tmr, wad is the one thing u need the person to know?

That i love her alot and i can not imagine my world without her.

-would 2 and 11 make a good couple?

Mich n Joyce??!?!?!!? as frenz maybe.. nth more!!! haha.. mr chiam will be devastated!!

-who is 16 going out with ?

I have absolutely no idea.... hmmmmm....

-describe 7 in 3 words

darling, himbo, sweet

-do u think 2 is hot?

of coz!! mich is my darling!! definitely!!

-would 1 and 17 make a good couple?

fi and baby shin??? heehee.. no one can take my baby away from me.. heehee..

-wad do u think of when u see 8?

Pretty, sweet, same jaw line?? haha.. though we hardly see each other, we know how much we miss each other.. :)

-wads 20's fav colour ?

easy!! green.. :)

-0n a scale of 1-10 .. hw cute is 15 ?

very.. i will give her a 10 when she's bashful.. haha.. :)

-wad wud u do if 4 confessed his or her undying luv for u ?

KEV?!!?!? HAHAHAA.. i think both of us will puke and die.. when kev reads this.. he probably wanna puke like right now..

-wad language/s does 19 speak ?

English.. Malay.. and a dash of Mandarin

-who is 14 going out with ?

A dude.. ahah.. but i dunno his name.. -_-'''

-is 19 a boy or girl ?

Definitely a girl.. :)

-wud 18 and 4 make a good couple?

Von n Kev???? u guys decide.. heehee..

-wad year is 17 in ?

1983

-when was the last time u talked to 12 ?

i think it's last sat.. if i'm not wrong..

-wad is 6's fav band ?

fen??? erhmm.. i dunnooo.. S.H.E??? haha..

-does 14 have any siblings ?

2.. one bro and one sis

-would u ever date 3 ?

for dinner or movie with the girls...? definitely.. haha..

-is 15 single ?

Are u with beng beng??? heehee.. HL??? dunno what name??? :P

-if 13 and 6 were forced to fight to a death, who wud u put ur money on ?

erhmm.. i think they have the same amt of strength.. ahahahahaah....

-haf u ever taken advantage of 11 while he or she was pissed drunk ?

JOyce???? i think she has seen me drunk more than i ever saw her.. haha..

-who will age better ? 2 or 5 ?

mich or cinz..... erhmm.. i dun wanna start a fight.. *peace*

-if u had to kill one person on this list, for the good of mankind.. who wud dat be ?

I'll sacrifice................. hmmmmmmm......... treat me for a drink.. i will tell u.. heehee.. *hint*

Feeling irritated and sad...

the only thing worth being happy abt is that i will be meeting my girls on sat..

Today, i met my 2 of my closest frenz... and i had loads of fun.. laughing and all.. it's been a long time since i had such fun...

Since i can't disclose who are the two.. we decided on their fake names..

i met daisy after mass to go to Holland Village to meet sunflower.. we were there too early.. so we went food-hunting coz we were really hungry.. so we had chocolate muffins from sweet secrets.. (standard dropped) then we went to cold storage for more food.. haha..

sunflower came at abt 120pm and we decided to go to Sushi Teh for lunch.. we really enjoyed the ambience and the food there... it's definitely worth the money.. :) real yummy!!! :) heehee.. we took loads of pics and daisy had to comment that my self-take photos always end up at the same pose.. basket.. haha..

then we headed to kino coz my 2 darlings wanna buy some books.. and then we went to borders where i bought this really cool flower pen.. (i know it's soo me.. :P) after some more shopping.. we went down to starbucks to chill..

we started talking abt our lives.. coz we haven't seen each other in ages.. and we were being such bitches n all..

and i realise i somehow dislike salsa more n more.. sometimes it can be so tasteless and all.. it's so cheap coz it's made of cheap ingredients.. but somehow some pple love it so much that they wanna make it organic and ex.. i wonder why though..

and then we went to take neoprints to end our day.. :)

thanks for the chilling, u guys... i really had loads of fun today... :) think i can last longer now.. :)

oh ya!! thank u, sunflower for the lovely necklace!! i really love it.. :)

and to end things.. here's a song for someone i know..

Artist: Alexz Johnson
Title: Stupid Girl

You pretend you're high
You pretend you're bored
You pretend you're anything
Just to be adored
And what you need
Is what you get

Don't believe in fear
Don't believe in faith
Don't believe in anything
That you can't break

[Chorus - 1]
You stupid girl
You stupid girl
All you had you wasted
All you had you wasted

What drives you on (what drives you on)
Can drive you mad (can drive you mad)
A million lies to sell yourself
Is all you ever had
Don't believe in love
Don't believe in hate
Don't believe in anything
That you can't waste

[Chorus - 2]
You stupid girl
You stupid girl
Can't believe you fake it
Can't believe you fake it

Don't believe in fear
Don't believe in pain
Don't believe in anyone
That you can't tame

[Chorus - 1]

[Chorus - 2]

[Chorus - 2]

Finally!!!

tmw will be my long awaited off day... :)

i'm mentally tired..

made a few mistakes over the past few days... feel pressurized not to make any mistakes.. coz my seniors are mostly bitches who talk bad abt those who do badly..

like this girl (ok.. she's not young) who made mistakes.. they kept scolding her everyday and talking bad abt her and all until she quit already.. ytd was her last day...

ok.. i know i can take shit from bitches.. but the thing is that.. the whole bloody dept will be going against u... how sad is that, man? i dun wanna be isolated... :(

alot of my ex-shatec mates are shocked that i would choose to work in reservation.. to tell u the truth, i have absolutely no idea why i chose to be in this line.. i really love banquet.. what am i doing??

i like organizing events and all.. i like everything abt banquet..

BUT..

i have a phobia that i might do clumsy things like i did when i was there as a trainee.. and i forgot how to portion food for wedding dinners already.. how can i be a captain or whatever when my casual labours are a million times better than me? and my last day of banquet days ended up like shit..

oh well..

right now..

i can't leave reservations.. coz when i started work, alot of pple in the hotel said that i won't last long there coz it's really stressful and hard work.. coz alot of pple have actually left the place within less than 3 mths.

alot of pple say that i won't last for more than 3 mths.

i'm gonna prove them wrong.. i hate it when pple do not have confidence in me...

i'm gonna last there for at least 2 yrs.

let's see who have the last laugh...

started answering fone calls today... still nervous abt it..


a stupid bitch at work tried to "act smart" with me today.. she couldn't find the reservation i made.. she called me over and acted like a real bitch.. turned out that she got the names wrong instead.. piece of shit.. she should be thankful that i'm in a gd mood today coz i hate being accused, as u guys know, or else i would have been very sarcastic to her.. hmph..

i was in a gd mood coz i saw my mentor again.. haha.. but wrong timing.. i was in a hurry to pee.. haha.. then happened to see him coz he was managing a function at the same flr.. he's such an ass.. i was already walking fast and he still had to play with me.. kept blocking my way and when i asked him to move away.. he pinched my cheeks really hard before running off... and i was too high tide to chase after him.. -_-''' haha..

well..

at least he gave me something to smile abt.. :)

WORK.. WORK.. WORK.. WORK..


update on my life...

Monday:

first day of work. thank gawd charlene was there to entertain me or else i'll be a loner.. haha.. it's fun working with her.. both of us had our first "battle scars".. both from the metal cabinet.. but mine was more serious coz it was a deep cut and it bled.. did filing n a little com work for starters..

Tuesday:

did more filing.. haha.. and did my first reservation on the system.. spent forever doing them though it's only 5 travel agent bookings..

ate oscar's buffet for dinner with a couple of frenz.. ate too much.. but it was really good... :) stomach ached while my fren drove me home.. tried to make myself feel better by climbing the stairs.. ended up with really bad stomach cramps instead.. couldn't move it at all.. took forever to get home.. thot i had to go for surgery or something.. -_-'''

Wednesday:

cleared away the old files in the metal cabinet and bundled them up and tied with according to the dates.. got distracted while cutting the string and ended up cutting my finger instead.. had a deep cut and it couldn't close.. blood was flowing out non-stop.. had to bandage it up.. -_-''' after which, i had like 4 paper cuts.. all quite deep coz blood came out..

had to bring down the reports down to the storeroom.. charlene n amanda helped.. 3 of us had to go up and down 4 times in total to sent all the reports down.. damn tiring.. had to climb onto boxes to get deeper in the shelves.. the girls started laughing coz they never saw any girl who is rougher than me.. -_-''' (at least i got the job done..)

saw my mentor in the lift.. haha.. both of us ended up like small kids coz we keep hitting each other.. missed him loads.. :)

Anyway....

i know i promised u that i will be careful.. i really tried to.. they were all accidental.. :(

it's the feng shui la.. when i was in shatec or anywhere else, nth happened to me.. only in conrad.. :( so it's not my fault... hmph...