Met Shal for dinner today.. talked abt the latest happenings and all.. however, shal also told me something that i feel so unhappy abt.. for her.. she hasn't done anything wrong but yet, someone chose to hurt her.. i really dun understand why and i feel very much upset abt it too.. coz this particular person did almost the same thing to me too.. and i was very hurt and upset too..

today was a bad day, coz i got yelled at over the phone 3 times during my shift and there was something wrong with the employment pass.. supposed to scan it each time u enter the staff entrance.. i did, but my manager told me that it read that i didn't attend work for 6 days.. f man.. i have been working lor.. kinda pissed by it..

pay day is coming soon, i think.. dunno much abt it coz i never worked before.. are they gonna give me a cheque or they will put in my account? can someone explain to me? or is it different for every company??

well.. i dunno how u guys' lives have been so far.. hopefully it's much more pleasant than mine..
hopefully, tmw will be a better day..

ciaos

 

Hey all....
 
I have offically started working for one week and two days already.. haha.. TMW's my off day!! YAY!! haha.. :)
 
You know....
 
when i first started out as a operator (that's my first stop) during Fri, sat n sun, it was like shit.. i felt really down coz my buddy who's training me was so agitated that she said this: "ah yo.. i can't believe it.. u can't hear properly and u always type in the wrong room no.. why they put u here... claraaaa...*tsk*"
 
so sad, u know.. but then, when i flip to the back pg of my notebook and i see the handwriting of sha, ivan n hannah (we exchanged addresses) i end up smiling.. coz i remembered all the times we spent.. :) that's one of my motivation.. and i really needed it so badly.. esp when i'm all alone in the dept with new pple to adapt to.
 
all in all, i was so down that i wanted to go to Human Resource on Monday and ask them to transfer me somewhere else.. that was my plan on sun.. i really felt very sucky.. i thought i sucked terribly.. esp the fact that on monday onwards, it was only gonna be my buddy n me in the morning shift.. (before that, there were 3 pple, including me, in the same shift) and my buddy was very worried coz she believes that i need alot of help and she's gonna suffer..
 
BUT then, on sun nite, i thought to myself.. how can i let something like that put me down.. by doing so, won't i be admitting that i am useless as a operator? how can i allow myself to be defeated? am i gonna let my buddy believe that she's gonna suffer big time on monday onwards? and finally i decided to juz be myself and be happy in any circumstances coz i really believe that everything can suck BIG time around u.. but it's up to u whether u want to be happy or not.
 
So, on Monday (yesterday), i went in and did my very best.. and i proved them wrong. i can be a good operator and i'm very proud of myself coz i didn't let this matter put me down.. and today, my buddy was so impressed with me coz i managed to finish everything i'm supposed to do and much more during her lunch break. (she went off for an hr)
 
i hope that this would continue.. i dun wanna be a burden to anyone. coz i know that i'm not..
 
wish me all the best, guys.. :) i miss u guys alot.. *muacks*
 
LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS...

tmw is the day that my life will change forever.. lol.. gonna start work already... first stop : Front Office.. i'm pretty nervous coz i know nuts abt the hotel and i'm supposed to check-in guests?! oh man.. n the best part is that i forgot everything i learnt in front office... T_T so scared.. reading up on the hotel now.. hopefully everything will be ok..

on fri, we had a DW chalet.. it was good and relaxing.. i really enjoyed myself.. :) sha and i were supposed to meet at 9 to go to Marine Parade to meet ivan to go to giant to buy the stuffs.. but haha.. we were all late.. and sha n i went to buy the stuffs first and ivan came abt 12 something close to 1.. we shopped for somemore then, we went to eat and hannah joined us later..

we went to sha's place first, to fry the bee hoon... sha and i fried it.. haha.. hannah n ivan were like giving the 'are-u-sure-it-will-taste-nice-look', esp after i accidentally spilled some beehoon on the floor.. lol then we went to the chalet to have the bbq, and ethan and weijie came later..

it was nice as we stayed up until 6 something (when ivan n ethan left) singing, talking, and joking around.. it was fun.. i htink we got closer after that..

we are gonna have dinner tmw together after work.. can't wait to see them again.. :)

true frens are hard to find, when u finally found them, treasure them..

ciaos

gonna be a little emotional here.. maybe it's the nite or maybe it's something else...

u may have lotzz of frens but when u're down, and need someone to talkt to.. who can u call? have u ever thought of this? who are the pple that u can juz pick up the fone and call, and be sure that everything will be fine after that phonecall.. for me, i can only name one. sometimes, none. kinda sad, huh? but it's the truth.. maybe the truth hurts.. esp to those pple whom they think that i will tell everything to them or i'll go to them if i have any probs.

everyone is so selfish.. always thinking of themselves and the welfare of their lives.. who cares abt others.. isn't it so sad? how many times on the train have u judged someone coz of their attitude? 'how can they talk so loudly on the train?', 'how can they not give their seat for that elderly lady?', 'how can he blast his music so loudly?', 'how can they sit on the floor n block the way?'..... etc, etc, etc... but surely, at least once in ur life, u've done the same..

it's so ironic.. i hate humans, but i'm one.. how pathetic is that? why dun i kill myself, huh? if i do that, it'll eventually come back to me coz i won't be able to go to heaven..

that is why i always believe it's all how u see it.. even if the world is ugly, it all depends on u.. are u gonna be like them or are u gonna be different.

i'm juz so moody now.. moody, moody, moody

HOLIDAYS!!!!

my long-awaited hols is here for two weeks.. finally!!! :) but i have been busy since the first day of my hols.. damn tired right now.. after typing this, will be heading to dreamland..

yesterday, sha, hannah and i went to the airport to send ivan, david and wyatt off.. main focus is ivan coz he's the one we really know what... and guess who i saw when sha, hannah n i went to coffeebean after sending the guys off?? u guys will never guess!

CHARLENE LEE.. remember her? hee.. i met her and we hugged.. and asked her where was she going.. lol.. she started laughing *as usual* and she said "SRI LANKA".. and i was like what the hell??! so i said "why are u going there?" then she said she's going there for holidays.. then she started laughing again *as usual* [maybe she's thinking why she's going to sri lanka]

but i stupidly forgot to ask her for her contacts.. feel quite sad abt it.. T_T

tmw, i'm going for a BBQ chalet.. quite excited abt it.. :P anyways.. i'll update u guys after i attend it..

on sat, will be another busy day coz i'll be selling tickets for IJ play and then half way through, i have to attend a wedding dinner.. then, might have to go back to CHIJMES again.

busy busy busy.........