Christmas....

Everyone kept sending me "merry x'mas" smses to me today... the more i receive the sadder i became.. now, u guys have only one qn to ask... WHY?

well.. i will tell u WHY...

Christmas has no meaning to me.

No meaning?

i know it's Christ's birthday n i do rejoice on that fact.. However...

How do u rejoice if.........

1) ur dad doesn't celebrate the occasion with u on the eve of it

2) ur mum either gets drunk (she gets angry) or too tired to bother

3) the only pple interested are only ur sisters, but it's fading away

4) when u returned home today (on the eve), no one bothered to say hi to u

5) u ended up reading a book, even way past midnight on the eve

6) u know tmw, everyone is gonna get fed up by daddy making alot of noise to get ready for morning mass

7) everyone will be putting an act in front of pple during mass pretending to be happy when the true fact is that we are angry

8) saying merry x'mas doesn't have any effect on u

Therefore, Christmas isn't very merry for me... and i dun hope much for my birthday coz i've never celebrate my birthday in a long time. my own parents even forgot abt it last yr.. what else can i say?

first day of banquet yesterday...

sucked like shit..

arms aching like hell.. can't raise it up

no frens over there..

they dun even know that i'm a trainee, not a casual labour..

how pathetic life can be?

went out with joyce today...

had lots of fun, esp when we were at PS.. lol.. we stalked a couple.. i can't believe we did that.. lol... we were sitting that e place where they had blocks for us to sit at B2 n i noticed this couple, this guy is an ang moh n the lady is chinese lah.. but the main pt was that they were making sandwiches in the middle of nowhere.. they bought bread, butter, cheese, ham and knife from carrefour.. haha.. so cute can.. we found it curious that they didn't eat it immediately.. so when they left, joyce n i decided to follow them n see where they're gonna eat..

i thought that they were going into the cinema or something.. joyce thought so too.. but guess where they went??? they went outside of PS to sit.. -_-''' wth rite?? so lame lor.. spoiled our imagination.. but we still thought that it was a pretty unique n sweet idea.. the guy prepared everything, u know..

so joyce n i decided that one day we should meet up at abt 11 am.. then sit n observe pple n choose who we wanna stalk.. hahaha.. then we'll stalk them for the whole day.. lol.. i think we're mad.. but it was funny stalking them leh!!!

hahaah.. now i know who's my lamest n craziest fren.. cheers to u, joyce.. lol.. *wink wink*

I can't stand myself..

i miss him like shit.. but i CAN'T like him... i can't help myself.. i'm supposed to treat him like a bro.. msged him last night but no reply.. wonder he's still affected by the quarrel or not.. i know he's not a good man.. and he can't keep secrets for nuts.. he's like a woman, muz tell everyone everything, worse than me.. lol.. he juz reminds me of max.. stupid reason, rite.... hoped to bump into him for the past few days but i guess i wasn't fated to see him..

finally i have time for myself and i have no idea what to do.. weird huh? haven't has so much free time for a long time.. i dun feel like resting.. feel like doing stuff but i have no idea what stuff... but since i'm already home.. i'm too lazy to call someone to go out with.. lol..

i'm home alone with my grandmama.. can't stay long with her though.. we have a tendency to argue with each other.. kinda tiring.. i know i should go along with her but sometimes she is so unreasonable.. but of coz she really very nice to me.. appreciate her alot though it's not visible sometimes..

my grandmama wants to celebrate her bday with mine this yr on the 26th... but the stupid prob is that i'm not sure whether i'll be off on that day or not.. but i really wish to celebrate with her.. if i'm able to take off.. do u guys wanna go to my hse to celebrate with us? my grandma asked if my frens wanna come along or not.. :)

anyway, if u guys are wondering why i'm typing so much.. i like my new keyboard ah.. very smooth.. haha.. so i muz type more... heh heh..

hey hey..

i'm so happy abt this week!! tmw, i'll be only working for 3 hrs coz they owe me 5 hrs of hrs and then on fri, sat n sun, i will be off!! how great is that??? i'm so happy that i can finally take a break.. very tiring, u know..

things are not bad at the moment.. i'm like the 3rd person to be in charge of salon by the pool.. though responsibilties are heavier but hey! i'm learning to be a manager or even a better position next time.. :)

i'll be going off to banquet soon.. next week, in fact.. i'm not sure if i'll be able to celebrate my birthday or not.. coz i have this very strong hunch that i'll be working on my birthday.. and u know banquet, rite.... probably will have to work for more than 8 hrs... so sad... T_T

i'm sad to leave oscar's though.. made alot of great frens there.. gonna miss them loads... hopefuly we'll still keep in contact.. same goes to u, joyce.. if u're reading this.. :P p.s. when do u wanna go to ajisen?!!

oh yeah!! thanks shalgia darling for the food.. it's very yummy!!! :) is it peanut butter filling???

went to Hard Rock Cafe to watch Singapore Idol with Donson n Shirley last nite.. was sad coz of some issues but was glad that i have my frens with me by my side..

Wanna know how much i drank? i started with Long Island Tea (pint) first, then Carlsberg(pint), Carlsberg(mug)... of coz they got worried coz i was high but i still could walk down the stairs to go to Forum to withdraw more cash... then alan called, asking where i am.. told him where i was n he said he's coming with Alex, Ken and Ah han.. the typical 4 guys n a girl again.... -_-''' waited for them to come, which they took ages..

they came abt 12 n shirley n donson left.. (thank u so much for being there for me) Alan, Ah han n Ken ordered smoothies (are they men?) n i ordered a carlsberg (pint) again, followed by another mug n another mug.. until i was super high...

They had to send me back.. i can't really remember what happened in the cab.. all i know was that i kept on hitting someone.. can't remember who...

woke up this morn, feeling even more shitty coz i feel even more sad... what am i gonna do with my life?

btw, i have been drinking every nite since mon.. i am so tired of drinking already.. time to sober up..

take care pple... love ya...