Something gross happened in wala's today that's not worth mentioning.. anyway, thank you for your concern.. Fi, Mich, Fie and Fun.. Esp Mich who came all the way to wala's to make sure that i'm fine.. i really appreciate it, dear.. :) ok.. thanks to JH too.. lol.. even though he had to meet me too coz Mich wanted to come n find me.. haha.. :)

On a brighter note....

Do i look like i love mickey mouse? like seriously? lol.. volder/happy new year bought me another pressie.. key chain with mickey n minnie mouse dangling.. -_-''' even though i like it coz it's pink, i think it's enough of micky mouse coz i already have a mickey mouse four leaf clover hp chain from him.. i'm juz not a mickey/minnie mouse lover.. i appreciate the thought though.. maybe it's time to hint that i like Eeyore more than other Disney characters.. :)

Fi, Mich n I had our worst steamboat experience ever! it's totally bad, man.. i never felt so disgusted at a eating place in my life.. even if it's the last eating place on earth, i rather eat grass than eat that ever again.. *Grossed out* i promise to tell all of u when i talk to u guys.. Man! It's even worse than the sweet, smiling steamboat we had, Fun!

Anyway..

Parents will be heading to manila from tmw.. promised alot of things to my mum.. sigh.. haven't told her abt fi's sleepover next fri though.. lol.. should be fine, no worries.. i really hope JH goes with us on fri, man.. i dun wanna sit there n drink alone! boohoohoo.. once is enough.. lol.. and i'm really wearing flats, no more mentos advertisement.. haha.. :)

Oh, heard abt the hail storm around my area on wed, rite? it's totally freaky! i didn't see any hailstones though but the rain/wind was so strong that my whole balcony was wet and we thought that it was a typhoon or something.. took a few pics though.. i wish i managed to catch the hailstones falling from the sky like Mich's dad.. it'll be totally cool man.. :)

When the rain first started

After ten mins of rain

The colour difference is so freaky, rite? my gawd.. totally scared the shit outta me, man..

Oh ya, i'm still on the lookout for the portable sewing machine, guys.. keep me posted if u see one.. thanks! :)

Finally decided to face the truth... Sigh.. it's been killing me for months.. sometimes, it's hard to face the harsh truth... So, please understand if i've lied to u.. i really didn't mean it.. i juz couldn't face it, that's why.. if u guys know me well enough, u'll know that i really hate to lie to my frens esp whom i feel close to.. it's been torturous for me, made me depressed for months..

Who would know what will happen now or the future.. i now know that i have the courage to move forward.. Dear frens, please be there for me and please be understanding.. Thanks babes.. :)

Was reading trent's blog juz now and he was talking abt a new pictorial in GQ starring Claudia Schiffer and Joseph Gordon-Levitt.. and wow.. Joseph Gordon-Levitt still looks the same.. i used to watch third rock from the sun every week coz of him.. he's so cute and his acting is good too.. when HBO was showing one of his movies "Brick", i watched it like 4 times.. :) he kinda reminds me of Heath Ledger too..

talking abt men.. i finally realized who my fantasy perfect guy is.. :) he's a mixture of Curtis Stone from Take Home Chef and Anthony Bourdain from No Reservations. Curtis is like freaking cute! i melt each time i watch Take Home Chef.. seriously, i would take him home any day.. lol.. he's not only freaking hot [my gawd..the way he stares with his big blue eyes], he's tall, charming, sweet.. and the list goes 0n.. and i like Anthony coz he drinks like a fish.. ahaha.. every episode, he's like drinking each time he eats or has a chance to.. i wanna accompany him on his drink escapades too!! oh, and i like his sense of humour and he oozes manliness.. haha.. :)

Sigh.. i wish i can find a guy with the combination of Curtis' looks and charms n Anthony's wicked sense of humour and manliness.. lol.. and the bonus would be that he can drink like a fish.. ;p but obviously that there isn't someone like that in s'pore, neither will i have the good fortune of having a guy like that.. how sad.. sigh.. i'm gonna die a spinster.. lol..

Wanted to blog for the past 3 days... but i got lazy and distracted to do other things instead of blogging.. and mood spoilers had to work their magic the night before.. in the end, my poor remote control was the "designated" one to suffer.. sigh.. i was shocked to see its state in the morning n it can't be fixed anymore.. anyway.. had a strong will to blog alot juz now.. but i'm feeling lazy again..

Oh well.. my thighs are aching to high heavens.. i was in so much pain in church ytd.. :( saw anto too.. she was behind me.. we talked for awhile.. she's still the same.. made me laugh.. that silly girl.. i was shocked to see her at church coz she's never this holy.. haha.. she decided to go coz she haven't been to church for a long time and since she was free, she decided to be holy for once.. :) oh, guess what i said when after we said hi and she said how was i? i replied: "i'm dying, my thighs are killing me" can u imagine how much pain i was in to say that in church? lol.. sigh.. she said she gave up standing n kneeling for one part of the mass that she knelt all the way.. man... i really should have done the same.. each time i had to bend my knees, my thighs were like in cramps or something.. T-T it all happened on thurs when my mum n i went to church for Holy Thurs at St. Peter n Paul n we went visiting the neighbouring churches after that.

Sigh.. the whole kneeling process on thurs made my thighs ached like shit and it got worse ytd.. and now, it even hurts when i wanna sit down.. all i hope now is that i can get rid of the pain soon..

Ear is still not well, went to another doc in town with my mum today.. still feeling a little giddy.. but at least it's no longer aching..

Anyway.. i have 2 food items that i miss alot and i really wanna eat them.. one of them i have no freaking idea where to buy..

* Cinnamon rolls... i remember the times when i was walking home from the mrt station and the smell of cinnamon from st. cinnamon was so heavenly... :) who can resist the sticky chewy sweet delight? sigh.. i can't find any cinnamon rolls now.. T-T

* Cream Cones from the bakery in sunset way.. the crispy pastry cone filled with cream and a cherry on top.. my weekend treat when we used to walk down to the bakery when we stayed there.. i muz find time to go there for a walk soon.. then perhaps i should head to the pizza place too.. the meatballs are heavenly.. :)

But first.. my bloody ear infection has to cleared first.. mummy is threatening to change me into a vegetarian if it doesn't get better soon... *sniff sniff* she's already not letting me eat any meat except fish.. -_-''' [she believes that all other meat has toxic if u have an infection...]

When i said i wanted to be ill.. i said flu.. Not ear infection... :(

The ear ache is even worse than the last time i had it in my other ear.. it hurts each time i move my bloody mouth.. damnit..

Haven't been a good mood ever since i had it.. and the doc had to try to be funny with me ytd.. first of all.. i can't really hear him.. and i had to process it slowly in my brain.. which didn't seem funny to me in the first place.. can't stand lame doctors.. he was like.. so, u think u're a doctor, huh? and he started to laugh.. and i was like staring at him and went huh? then he went.. coz only docs tend to get ear infections more often coz of the stethoscopes.. and he started to laugh again.. he only stopped laughing when he realized that i wasn't laughing with him and my face was kinda like this --> -_-''

All i can hope now is that my ear will recover faster.. unlike the other ear..

There are 2 accident-prone pple in my family.. Guess who are they? If u guys can guess it correctly.. i'm real proud of u.. Lol..

* My mum.. She fell down again.. -_-''' this morning.. she's at home with me now..

and me.. but i haven't had any major accident in a long time, alright? :) real proud of myself.. :)

Maybe being accident-prone is in the genes?

Oh ya.. last yr, i had an ear infection in my right ear, rite? now, i have it in my left ear.. as though i'm not deaf enough.. felt dizzy since ytd till this morning.. Gonna see the doc tog with my mum soon..

Random thoughts/questions that filled my mind today...

I wish my name has an alphabet 'i' in there.. can u imagine how many ways i can decorate the dot on top? it can be a sun, moon, star, butterfly, heart, fly, cherry, strawberry, teardrop, swirl and many many more.. i can do a different style for my signature too!

Where can i find those portable sewing machine? i have a slight memory of having one for my bday when i was young.. and i think i destroyed it by using the screwdriver to open all the parts and i didn't know how to put back.. but i really wan to buy one now.. i can make pouches, little clothes for my bears, boxer shorts for my babes.. lol.. i went to spotlight today, hoping to find one.. but apparently they dun have it.. *sad*

fish dun slp, rite? so i think i have a miracle guppy at home! it can slp! so cool!!

I wish i had a robot or a maid again... I have a craving for hash browns from mac lately but i'm too lazy to walk over to J8 to buy them.. is it me or the frozen ones that supermarkets sell juz dun taste the same?

I wanna have Nigella's food closet! she has everything inside there.. It's a walk-in closet of food.. how heavenly is that? makes me jealous each time i watch her show.. i wish i was her kid or relative.. i'll spend my hols in that closet.. lol

i wanna get flu but noone near me seems to be ill.. how do u get flu on ur own anyway?

Ok.. there are more.. but i think it's enough of random-ing.. ;p

oh.. today was like ex-conrad mates day! ok fine.. i onli saw two... but u guys know how i hardly see anyone i know when i go out, rite? I ran into michelle after having lunch with von n fun.. i wouldn't have noticed her if they didn't point her out.. lol.. she was kinda next to me.. but my specs is wider on the sides wat.. anyway.. it was fun catching up with her.. i haven't seen her since she left oscar's 3-4 yrs ago.. and i saw ken [to cinz, fenny n kev: not the higher dip one..].. lucky he didn't see me.. dun feel like talking to him.. he's annoying..

today was almost like gross day.. first.. e lady sitting next to me in the bus had to wipe some smelly cream on her arms.. it smelt like glue plus tea tree? it was over-whelming.. if that wasn't enough.. the lady sitting diagonally in front of me started puking every few mins into her plastic bag.. and best part? i was on my way to have lunch.. my stomach was churning throughout the whole bus ride..

so i thought that was the end.. but noooo... i was in P.S after lunch [it is NOT my fav place.. the shops juz happened to be there!] to run a few errands for my mum.. when i reached there, i needed to pee badly.. and there was a long queue when i reached the ladies.. sigh.. and i was standing near the basins.. then... this lady came out of the cubicle and stood in front of me to use the basin.. after she washed her hands, she decided to re-tie her hair.. ok.. seriously.. i nearly passed out when she raised her arms.. her b.o was so over-powering!!! oh man! even after i moved away, i could still smell her b.o.. i think it kinda spread far and wide.. i literally had to charge into my cubicle when my turn came.. to escape from the foul smell!

and then.. never mind.. coz i rushed into the cubicle and closed the door, rite? then i realized that the lady before me shat.. so her shit smell still lingered on.. T-T so i ran out again.. and i decided to go to another floor's toilet instead.. at least nothing smelly happened when i was there..

What kinda day is this?! Hmph... is it juz me or what?

I'm too lazy to blog abt the past week.. :)

so.. i shall leave a few quotations to reflect on..

"Why is it that our memory is good enough to retain the least triviality that happens to us, and yet not good enough to recollect how often we have told it to the same person?"
Francois de La Rouchefoucauld

"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." Anonymous

"Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future." Paul Boese

"Friends will keep you sane, Love could fill your heart, A lover can warm your bed, But lonely is the soul without a mate." David Pratt

"A true friend stabs you in the front." Oscar Wilde

"Blessed is he who has learned to laugh at himself, for he shall never cease to be entertained."
John Powell

"Honest disagreement is often a good sign of progress." Mahatma Gandhi

"My friend, why have you drifted so far away? All motion is relative, maybe it is you who have moved away by standing still." Anonymous

"Do not save your loving speeches for your friends till they are dead; Do not write them on their tombstones, Speak them rather now instead." Anna Cummins

Have a great week ahead, my dearies.. :)

Sigh.. I really wanna sleep right now.. but grandma is still up cleaning the hse coz my parents are coming back tmw.. and i can't slp knowing that she's still up cleaning.. guilty conscience is pretty high.. N not that i didn't help k.. i juz finished washing the kitchen floor..

Aww.. come on! it's freaking 2am! N they aren't royalites.. why are we still up doing this kinda shit? ok fine.. the day when grandma n mum were due home from bkk, i panicked and started cleaning the hse like i never did before.. but i woke up earlier to do them, that's all.. not staying up late to clean the bloody house.. Besides.. i told grandma that i'll do them tmw... -_-''' sigh.. i tried all ways to get her to stop.. but she's more stubborn than me, unfortunately..

Anyway..

To my darlingz.. More peace and Less war! i know u guys know what i am talking abt.. come on dearies.. life is too short to be angry/upset with each other.. i know the both of u can work things out.. love you guys loads.. dun wanna see u two miserable.. i'm always here if you need me, alright? *BIG HUGZ*

LOVE - HATE RELATIONSHIP


Bet u guys muz be wondering with who... who do u guys think it is?

I have a love-hate relationship with the rain..

I mean like.. it is nice to have rain coz the weather is nice to sleep in.. and it's cooling n all.. [u guys know how i turn into a monster when the heat gets to me] It also waters the plants n grass around singapore.. the grass around my block were turning yellow.. poor things..

But!!

having rain also means that the bloody bugs and insects will start running into our homes to take shelter. Basket.. do u know how many times i had to spray mortein around my home? i am so not gonna go near them by hitting them with a newspaper or something.. and i juz used finished my last can! how am i supposed to survive the night with the bloody insects/bugs happily taking shelter in my home? why can't they take shelther somewhere else? like under the block or something? 4th floor seems kinda high for them to be avoiding the rain what................... sigh.. i'm so irritated..

that nite.. at 4 am.. i had to get up and spray this bloody beetle that apparently couldn't fly well.. it was smacking itself against my walls like nobody's biz.. so annoying that i had to get up and find my mortein to spray it around until it dies. i have to remind u guys that it didn't take me a long time coz i am very good at spraying the bloody bugs.. so anyway.. when it eventually died... i didn't like pick it up or anything... u know.. these bugs are very sly.. they love to play dead.. where in the world did they learn something like that, i wonder.. so i juz sprayed a little more on it n went to slp.. and when morning came, i went to check on it.. it died.. [i guess i sprayed too much] but i didn't dare to touch it.. so i had to ask nana to sweep it up for me instead..

i really hate bugs, insects, cockroaches n lizards.. ya ya.. they help us in their little ways.. but.. why can't they look better? wait.. butterflies are pretty but ever since the bloody chinese show abt them being evil... i totally change my perspective of them..

Guess they are juz not meant to be my fav things in the world..