okie..

I'm back... what kind of stupid self-retreat....

Oh well... I'm an emotionally unstable person anyway...

i dun seem to have a mood that is sane.. it's either extremely happy or extremely upset or angry...

Sometimes, i wonder if i have chronic depression...

but...

the happy clara is back for the time being... and i love my new blog's pic

and hub.. hahaa.. i will still love u though u'll look like TOP DECK!! *it really cracked me up*

TO ALL

If it is a routine that i tell u my problems.. then eventually i will tell u.. no matter how old is it.. Last thing i need pple asking around if they know what's going on.. Esp the person one chooses to ask is someone that is based far away.. That person will not happen to know everything.. Alright..


If you guys wanna know anything abt me.. ask Me.. dun ask others.. I hate it.. why ask others when u know that i will tell u everything if u juz ask... it's that simple.. dun u guys know by now.

So stop asking others.

And i will get over this shit... i always have been handling my problems by my own.. and it will remain this way.

If u guys are worried. I'm sorry to cause the trouble..

Like i said. u're the last person i wanna have an arguement with.. If u dun wanna care abt me.. so be it.. I can't feel anything anymore anyway.. i thank u for the advice. that's all i can say.

MY LAST ENTRY...



I won't be blogging anymore.. i juz dun feel like it anymore... Right now.. i only have unpleasant things to write abt my life.. i dun wish to talk abt them as this blog first started out to be a happy blog.. but.. it has been only becoming sadder and sadder as days goes by..

And seriously speaking..

It sucks.. sucks to see or read the entries that are depressing and it only depresses me more.. i dunno.. maybe things will become better.. but in the meantime.. this blog will stop having entries by me..

You still can tag if u guys wanna. coz i won't be deleting this blog..

Until then......

If i see u, i will.. If i dun... take care.. Bye bye...


P.S

You may try to deny it.. but it's obvious to me.. but i dun wanna talk abt it anymore.. I juz wanna say that i'm not dumb, blind or deaf.. i know how he really feels and i know u know too.. besides, i know him like the back of my hand. how do u think i knew abt her? i have been pretending that i do not see... and it's gonna stay that way... and that's coz i treasure u.. u may choose to deny it.. but juz dun hurt him like she did...

had a fun time with 2 close frenz today.. real happy.. they really brighten up my day.. :)

when i was heading back home.. at the mrt station, i saw an elderly man waiting for his wife to come home to walk home with her... so sweet.. :) since when have u seen this happening.. esp with men nowadays.. rare species man..

i can't wait for june.. coz it's be time to celebrate my bitch cinz bday.. as well as i might be going on a trip.. YAY!!!!

to end off....

to someone...

i never did say i was gonna broke the promise.. if u dunno that i'm kidding.. then i dunno what to say.. coz i thot u wld know better than that... sigh..

I guess sometimes time really helps to relieve pain.. which is a gd thing i guess..


Have been going thru the same routine for the past few days.. go to wk n try to get out of there as soon as i can.. head home by bus where i can slp (i can finally slp in buses!!! too tired, i guess).. reach home, bathe n have dinner and then catch a few esp of despo hsewives on my sis's lappie.. i know it's boring.. but at least i can finally catch up on season 2.. hee hee..

and i'm also trying to renovate my blog.. as u can see.. but.. it'll take some time as i am still testing water..

anyway..

yeh, u taught me.. but i can't help but feel betrayed sometimes.. esp when i trust pple so much n i dun even say anything bad abt them ever.. and i always have nth but praises for them. but i know now.. and it sucks..

pple are supposed to be nice and caring and good pple.. they are not supposed to be like this esp when others are nice and thoughtful and caring to them.. isn't it supposed to be both ways? or have i been hallucinating or too naive..

i dunno.. but it really sucks.. i wish i can run somewhere that i can feel safe and tt i can trust everyone...

i thought that things were going smoothly no matter how tough it was... but i guess it was juz all my imagination..


If u wanna talk behind my back. Juz make sure that i dunno anything abt it.. alright?


Dun let me find out...

I dun wanna know..

Let me be ignorant..