Had a new haircut to make myself feel better.. Hopefully the feeling will last me for more than a few days..

i'm super duper nervous abt tmw! dun think i'll be able to slp well tonite... Give me ur support, frens!!!!!



Hopefully, everything will be smooth n fine!



And





I am shy! I'm really very shy la.. why won't anyone believe me? my gawd! can't u guys see my shyness??

U know.. being sick makes me grouchy..so i dun wish to play games with fake curtis stone anymore..

Anyway..

Fri was fun.. spent the day with tarcy.. we went to Ikea to shop for new stuffs to place in her room.. she even bought a small coffee table which i helped her fix.. :) i love fixing stuffs.. heh.. anyway.. we went back to her place and after fixing the table for her, i went on to dismantle her bed.. it was so much fun!! :) of coz i left the sweeping n mopping to her.. hahaha.. then we changed the rest of her stuffs and settled down to see her pics of her master days.. i love the scenery, man! but coz i was lying on the bed and i was really tired, i fell asleep after awhile.. i didn't even know that fi/mich tried to call me.. lol.. i was meeting the girls for porridge steamboat.. so we left her place in a hurry and i went down to amk.. :)

At least i wasn't the last one to arrive! :P Liwen walked in 5 seconds after me..heh.. i like the steamboat.. :) the best i ever tried, i guess.. coz everything was super fresh.. :) Penny n Silvia came n joined us after that.. it was a really nice night.. had fun laughing n all.. and we took silly pics at Subway where penny decided to go for her second dinner.. mich, u muz send me the pics soon.. :) By the way, Sil.. i love u and all... but i really got quite scared when u sent us back that night... But.. i'm sure u'll be able to drive smoothly soon, ya! :)

Oh ya.. i can't believe that after 4 yrs or so... Terence Wong [not the higher dip one] one of my frens that i lost contact with is now working with Penny.. :) it was really nice n sweet of him to remember my name n how we got to know each other n all.. :) though he was really annoying when we first met.. lol.. Hopefully he has stopped that behaviour.. haha..

Ohhh.. "Curtis Stone"!!!! Like i said.. send me 4 tix for the World Gourmet Summit 2008 and a chance to have dinner with u.. then i'll believe u..

If not..

I tell u.. when i find out the shithead who is trying to pose as Curtis Stone.. the person is gonna have hell from me.. Basket... Act somemore.. KNS... Piss me off at 1.52AM? nothing else better to do? *Angry*

U better own up instead of me having the trouble finding who it is... Piece of Shit!

As u guys would have noticed (Not!), i have changed my blog template as well as my taggie.. :)

Now if i can juz remember how to do other stuffs with my blog that i used to do.. Growing old.. can't remember already..

Oh..

Latest news:

Apparently i'm supposed to go overseas in June.. but i dunno when, where n why..

How interesting, huh? Lol..

P.S i juz can't stand Se Bei Bei!!! Annoying..


P.P.S


This is what amanda drew when i pissed her off juz now..





Oh Ya!!

Welcome To My Blog, Tarcy!! :)

Grandma is sick.. sigh.. with fever n cough.. the fever has finally gone down.. but she's still coughing non-stop.. hopefully it'll be gone soon too...

Didn't have a very good experience with old pple with minor illness like flu or cough.. Grandpa [dad's side] was bed-ridden n had to be feed thru a tube.. then he had flu and fever.. so my aunt brought him to the hospital.. the doc said that it's juz normal flu n he could be discharged the next few days.. then suddenly, he passed away.. it was so unexpected..

So i'm worried abt my grandma now.. ya.. i know she's a healthy person, she can walk and eat normally.. but u can't be sure, can u? i'm not cursing her or anything.. sigh.. i dunno how to explain.. hopefully u guys know what i'm talking abt..

Parents are coming back soon.. not exactly very excited as u guys know.. but i do miss my mushroom loads.. the little shit.. she called to tell me that she sent me an email.. but i totally didn't receive it.. so i went into her email to check which email add she sent to.. [i know her email password] and guess what? she saved it in drafts instead.. -_-'''

Juz had the most relaxed and one of the best times of my life ytd.. it's real simple but i haven't had this kinda feeling in my family in a long time..

The 3 of us (Nana, Chris n i) spent the afternoon watching "my lovely samsoon" in my room n we didn't fight even though it was like 2 hrs together.. after which, nana n i went to church tog, where once again.. we were making each other laugh.. n we had a nice time (it was actually fun!) having dinner tog and buying stuffs for grandma n chris after that.. did u know that we never had dinner (like only the 2 of us) before? i'm serious.. we are always too busy with our lives with our frens.. or we'll be out with mummy n chris..

And then..

When we went home, we joined chris to watch telly n we were laughing n joking for 5 hrs together.. i can't remember the last time that we can actually survive standing each other for so long.. i really enjoyed my sisters' company ytd, man... which i never knew i could.. n i know that for this kinda thing to happen again? it will take another million yrs or so.. that's the sad truth..

Anyway..

Maybe it's time to head to the doc soon... Haven't had my thingy since Nov.. Juz counted the mths n realized that if i still dun get it for may.. it means that i haven't had it for 6 mths.. though the longest time it didn't come was 7 mths, i'm starting to get worried..

i juz had to blog abt this.. u know.. i think i'm really talented in making up new words.. like..

Poochini
Sob-listic
Droolalious
Snufflalious

I can't think of any other words i've made so far.. i'm too sleepy to think.. lol.. if i remember, i'll continue.. :)

Gawd.. I'm juz sick n tired of these kinda stuff, man.. it's so Sec 3..

I juz can't believe pple still do these kinda things esp when they aren't exactly getting any younger. I juz wanted to help, that's all.. how did things become like this? What am i? A slave? An object? What, man? I can't make decisions on my own? I can't help whoever i wanna help? How did baking of a cake got me into such stuff? Seriously, did i do anything wrong? And how could u actually say that someone that i actually trust said that to you? I express interest? Ya.. i express interest in showing u my arse. You know what? Forget it. I dun wanna help anyone anymore. I won't go back there ever again. Never again. I dun wanna care anymore. All coz i dunno how to say no? is that why all these happen? Fine. i will learn how to say no from now on.. It's that is what it takes, i will do it. Someone told me that i should learn to think for myself and stop thinking abt others. I dun owe them anything. I'm really tired.. i really am.. I dunno who to trust anymore. Sometimes pple ask me why i dun wanna share with them my probs that are really bothering me inside.. it's coz i know even if i say it out, no one will be able to help me.. What's the pt of saying then? I might as well juz keep it in. Like i told someone.. I dun show anyone that i'm depressed, so i dun have to share. If i do wanna share, i'll definitely share with alot of pple.

What i'm doing or trying to do is really very very simple. I'm juz trying to survive on this world. Is that so hard to ask for?

And Fun..? I'm really sorry abt ur ear. I wish i could do something to ease the pain or make it less swollen but i really dunno what to do.. if it closes, i'll pay for the next one, k? pls let me lessen the guilt that i have..

Juz finished reading a book "Just Listen" by Sarah Dessen on my way back home from dinner with not a very happy fren, whom i didn't wanna hang after dinner so we went home..

Anyway...

If u guys have the time, pls go read the book.. it's really good.. it's one of those books that really got me thinking.. abt stuffs.. for your info.. nothing in the book relates to me but the message it brings across juz really touches my heart.. i have no idea what's going on but recently all the books that i borrowed from the library seems to portray the same message across.. is it a hint from the high above? maybe he's trying to give me courage.. :)

Massive changes are heading next week.. Give me strength, peeps.. Hopefully everything will be fine.. i dun deal very well with conflicts if u would have realized.. i juz wanna get on with my life happily. I juz hope that pple will juz go easy on me and dun judge me for what i've done. Some of u will know what i'm talking abt... ok.. maybe only 2 frens.. or... 1..

On a brighter note..

I know this is super duper early but!! i know how i wanna celebrate my bday this yr! lol.. i told mich n grace my idea already.. real excited abt it.. hahaha.. can't wait man.. we're juz gonna chill and relax, k peeps? Erhm.. when i say chill.. dun worry.. i dun mean drinking.. unless u guys wanna after that.. anyway.. i juz wanna be surrounded by all the pple i love.. that's all i wan.. but i know Cinz won't be able to celebrate my bday this yr again.. sigh.. that's really depressing to know though.. but i promise we're definitely gonna have fun! if not.. u guys juz better pretend to have fun! haha.. how comforting, aye?

And..

I was looking through all the pics that i have in my comp and i came around this.. remember these.. ahah.. i seriously think that i do portraits really well, by the way.. enjoy the pics, peeps.. :)

The famous drawing of Cinz.. lol.. :)

One of our sushi dates which is slowly becoming an annual affair instead..

This is obviously taken yrs ago.. my gawd.. i have long hair that time.. *shudders* kev stop laughing.. i know what u're thinking.. -_-''

I have absolutely no idea what sil is doing this pic.. have been trying to figure out to this date.. haha.. :)

All the guys in my higher dip class, being such a sport posing for this pic.. haha :) really miss the days we shared.. no matter how gross it was.. lol..

Last but not least...

The pic that convinced Cinz that there will be no one else who will accompany me on my gross food moments.. :)

Photos that we took on Friday

Obviously these are not the only photos that we took throughout the nite.. but some are juz way too embarrassing to be placed under public eye.. lol.. we had fun and all... [at some pt of time] haha.. but i'm glad that we went together.. Anyway, thank you "caretakers", Jian Yun for sending us back to Fi's place.. thank goodness Sil drove down.. :) and thanks Marshall n Jian Yun for buying breakie for us the next morn.. :)

But this is seriously the last time i'm going clubbing.. haha.. i'm juz gonna stick to pubbing n my beer from now on.. at least i won't end up with bruises.. :P

I'm growing old..

Woke up on sun with my lungs aching from i have no idea what and my right arm aching from playing wii.. with my other injuries from fri.. i think the worst should be my lungs.. couldn't breathe too hard or laugh at all.. it was painful and nana seriously didn't help me much coz she kept making me laugh on our way to church n in there.. felt like a bloody old woman.. chris got freaked out when we got back coz my face was pale.. that she made me promise her that i'll see the doc today if it gets worse..

I'm feeling much better already! haha.. anything to escape the doc.. :)

Think i juz love to be in deep shit too much.. if i have a gun, i'll juz shoot myself in the head.. Feeling so disgusted with myself.. Maybe i juz love being in a f**ked-up life too much.. Juz love torturing myself too much.. Have no idea what's my stupid problem.. I'm so f**king screwed..

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