Halloween...

Halloween always reminds me of Huiling.. coz..

She was the first person to tell me abt halloween..

and..

I get reminded of how someone thought that Hui was playing with dark magic.. haha.. Hui was fascinated with taro cards, witches and spells for some period of time..

I guess i juz miss my Hui.. when she came back, we didn't even have the time to meet up.. i feel so bad..

Disney channel is having alot of halloween themed shows, some of them are pretty good.. chick flicks.. :)

Anyway..

Having massive migraine at least twice a week.. should i see the doc or it's perfectly fine?

It's time for pictures.. been awhile since i uploaded any pics..

Second time my table is so neat.. when i left.. :)

Flowers that lao ban n some colleagues gave me..

Some of the stuffs that i had to carry home.. the hello kitty packet (marshmallows) was given by von n ah fun and the massager was given by alicia

Amanda n i goofing around.. :P

Chee chor was bored and made me wear the stupid reindeer on my head.. :/

We heart each other alot.. :)

To declare our love for one another.. ahahahhaa.. *puke*

Matching shoes.. :)

I miss chee chor.. she's coming back in nov.. i can't wait.. :)

I really dunno how much more i can take..

I slept at 5am on Sat morning, woke up at close to 1pm.. then.. i couldn't sleep until 12noon today (sun).. almost the same as last week..

and then my l'l sis had to piss me off coz she tried waking me up at 3pm.. couldn't get up coz i was feeling giddy.. then she had to pass some stupid comment when i told her not to disturb me coz i slept at 12 noon. she said this.. "no one forced u to stay up so late what"..

crap.. do u think i have nth else better to do with my life than stay awake in the night while everyone is asleep? i really wanna have a good sleep at night but i can't. how did it become that i forced myself to stay awake. Not as though the shows at night are damn interesting.. i wish i can slp at 10 plus 11pm.. coz ur body organs recuperates at different timings at night that's why u shouldn't stay up too late. but what choice do i have?

if someone said that i could have one wish.. i would wish that i could slp soundly at night for the rest of my life..

and u know..

maybe i'm not meant to be too happy.. the 3 happiest days of my life always end up turned into something devastating by the end of the day. the third one that happened recently reminded me of the 2 other incidents.. why muz it be like this?

sigh..

Sigh..

Freaking ear has an infection.. went to see the doc on Mon.. and he said that it's an infection and it's pretty serious. i've gotta go back tmw for another check up on my ear.. i'm having a pus-filled ear.. BooHoooHoo... Super Grumpy..

ANyway..

i finally decided to join the stupid community thingy that ivy has been bugging me to join.. and..

i dun see what's so exciting abt it? what's so fun abt poking someone? and the stupid security checks are driving me nuts..

Call me old-fashioned.. but i dun like it at all..

Grumpy.. Grumpy.. Grumpy..

My left ear is blocked.. can't hear very well.. bought ear drops already.. hopefully it'll work anytime soon...

Slept for only 2 hrs.. from 7am till 9am.. could have slept longer if stupid san didn't call aL.. after i got up, i called her to scold her like crazy.. she kept pretending that the connection is very bad.. and we ended up watching doremon.. -_-

Miss my parents.. weird feeling.. oh well.. better enjoy my freedom whilst it lasts..

Hopefully, i'll be able to slp tonight.. saw some interesting movies to watch at HBO though...

I wanna be Grumpy Carebear now.. hmph...

Msning with Cinz now..

Was telling her that i was clearing my things last nite aft i got home.. and i found a...

Pile of Backstreet Boys' post cards... hahhaa... and we started laughing abt how crazy we were..

here's how our conversation went:

Clarabelle = Me
spontaneously idiotic. = Cinz.. kinda like duh...

Clarabelle says:
eh.. u know what
Clarabelle says:
ytd i was clearing my desk
Clarabelle says:
and guess what i found?
spontaneously idiotic. says:
hahaha another of my 'male' photos ?
spontaneously idiotic. says:
hahahahahah
Clarabelle says:
hahahahha h
Clarabelle says:
no la
Clarabelle says:
crazy ah
Clarabelle says:
hahahaha
Clarabelle says:
i found my pile of backstreet boys postcards
spontaneously idiotic. says:
OMG
spontaneously idiotic. says:
HAHAHAHAH
spontaneously idiotic. says:
DATS NFUCKING OLD SCHOOL
Clarabelle says:
i was so horrified man!!! i threw them away..
Clarabelle says:
hhaha
spontaneously idiotic. says:
siao y throw
spontaneously idiotic. says:
haha
Clarabelle says:
i was like what the hack did i see in them
spontaneously idiotic. says:
send to me la
Clarabelle says:
for what
spontaneously idiotic. says:
u never send me postcard
Clarabelle says:
i threw them out already la
Clarabelle says:
too late
spontaneously idiotic. says:
eh EXCUUUSEE ME
spontaneously idiotic. says:
I LUV NICK LAST TIME K
spontaneously idiotic. says:
hahahhaha
Clarabelle says:
who didn't
Clarabelle says:
hahahahah
spontaneously idiotic. says:
and AJ
spontaneously idiotic. says:
haha
Clarabelle says:
ewww
Clarabelle says:
i liked nick n brian
spontaneously idiotic. says:
omg i cant believe i luv aj
spontaneously idiotic. says:
jaja
Clarabelle says:
yeah balls
spontaneously idiotic. says:
omg hahahaha
Clarabelle says:
that's so gross
spontaneously idiotic. says:
same as my fren
Clarabelle says:
hahahaha
Clarabelle says:
aj and his noodle hair
Clarabelle says:
ewwww
spontaneously idiotic. says:
i noe i hated spice girls. till now.
Clarabelle says:
hhahaha
spontaneously idiotic. says:
wuhauhaua
Clarabelle says:
ohman
spontaneously idiotic. says:
no AJ with the goatie
Clarabelle says:
i used to own a spice girl polaroid camera
Clarabelle says:
hahaha
spontaneously idiotic. says:
WEUHAUHAUHAUHAUAHUAH!
Clarabelle says:
yeah!!
Clarabelle says:
ahahaha
spontaneously idiotic. says:
I GOT THAT CAMERA ALSO LA
Clarabelle says:
HAHHAHAHAHAHAA
spontaneously idiotic. says:
hahahaha
Clarabelle says:
HAHAHA
spontaneously idiotic. says:
FUCK
Clarabelle says:
WTF?
spontaneously idiotic. says:
HAHA
Clarabelle says:
HAHAHAHAAHA
spontaneously idiotic. says:
omg im FUCKING LAUGHING OUT LOUD NOW LA
Clarabelle says:
can i juz faint now?
spontaneously idiotic. says:
hahaha
Clarabelle says:
hahaha
Clarabelle says:
YEAH man!!
Clarabelle says:
hahahaha
Clarabelle says:
hahahah h
spontaneously idiotic. says:
lucky no one arnd me la
spontaneously idiotic. says:
haha
Clarabelle says:
this is hilarious!!!
Clarabelle says:
haha
spontaneously idiotic. says:
wtf laaa hahaha
spontaneously idiotic. says:
wots with the damn bands n stuff
spontaneously idiotic. says:
my fren even join club lor
spontaneously idiotic. says:
wuhauhauha
Clarabelle says:
hahahhaha
Clarabelle says:
remember the spice girls movie?
spontaneously idiotic. says:
hahahahahah
spontaneously idiotic. says:
sounds damn familiar
Clarabelle says:
hahaha
Clarabelle says:
i went to watch it twice
spontaneously idiotic. says:
omg la
spontaneously idiotic. says:
haha
spontaneously idiotic. says:
ure so ah lian
spontaneously idiotic. says:
mini bimbolian
spontaneously idiotic. says:
hahah
Clarabelle says:
kns
Clarabelle says:
liking spice girls wasn't ah lian or bimbotic laaaaaaaa

sigh.. those were the days man....

A Quick Update..

Went to Wala Wala with aL n Ah fUn on sat nite.. had alot of fun and the live band there is damn good.. fell in love with the voice of the lead singer.. hahaa. but the stupid chairs were too hard.. had some serious buttache issue that lasted up till now.. i can't walk too fast now.. kns..

Reached home at abt 2-plus.. a fren suddenly msged me saying that he was bored.. ended up smsing him until abt 4plus and my brain couldn't function anymore.. so i went to slp..

Woke up at 6-plus..which means i only slept for abt 2hrs.. wanted to faint.. went to send my mum off coz she's leaving today.. had to carry down the luggages for her.. and i haven't slept until now..

Finally brought aL to church today.. vOn.. next time, u bring her instead k? i was so absorbed during mass and when i turned to my left.. she was slping away.. -_-'''
i was so horrified k...

SIGH.. it would have been a better day if the call was not picked up.. spoilt the whole day for the both of us..

Time will heal all wounds.. i promise u..

Anyway.. i'm gonna lie on my bed now.. my butt is aching again.. crap of all craps...

1. What is the status of you and
the last person you held hands with?
- Friends

2. What is bothering you right now?
- Juz irritated coz lack of slp

3. What time did u sleep last night?
- 4am

4. Wallpaper on your computer's
desktop?
- Cartoon flowers n mountains..

5 . Background on your cell phone?
- My cute grandma

6 . What do you want in your life right
now?
- Inner Peace

7. Listening to?
- Nan Quan Mama.. like 2 of the guys in the group.. haha

8. What are you eating right now?
- Watermelons, Honeydew n Pear

10. Drinking?
- Teh Si Bing

11. What's your favorite thing to have
on your bed?
- Pillows.. the more the merrier.. (my poor grandma)

12. If you could change something in
your life, what would it be?
- Nicer to my grandparents [dad's side] when they were still around

13 . What do you wear to bed?
- T-shirt n Boxer

14. Do you remember your dreams?
- No.. I have the shortest memory around

15 . Who will you sleep with tomorrow?
- My grandma?! haha.. no choice.. she slps with me everyday..

16. Have you ever been gambling?
- I won 10 cents in Mahjong once. hahaha..

17. Who would you wish you could understand better?
- My dad

18 . What did you do last weekend?
- Cuz's wedding, Church n hanging with my mum

19. Who do you miss?
- Alot of pple

20. Who is the last dude and girl you
hugged?
- Girl (Ah Fun).. Dude? Wah.. i seriously can't remember.. Haven't hugged any guy for the longest time.. preparing to be a nun..

21. Orange or apple juice?
- Apple.. Orange juice gives me diarrhoea

22. Who was the last person you went
somewhere with? Where?
- Ailing.. HongKong Cafe at Marina Square

23 . What was the last text message
you got?
- From AiLing.. telling me that she bought alot of food.. haha

24 . Have you kissed anyone on your top friends?
- Yes.. on the cheeks

25. What was the last thing you drank?
- Teh Si Bing.. the questionaire is kinda long...

26. Whose house did you go to last
night?
- My House?

27. Who was the last person you
visited in the hospital?
- My grandaunt.. she fell and broke her hipbone

28. Do you like someone right now?
- Nope

29. Are you bored?
- Yah.. That's why i'm blogging..

30. What is the last movie you
watched?
- the stupid rat movie. Ratatouille

31. Name three drinks you regularly.
- Water, Beer and Teh Si Bing

32. What are you excited about?
- Gossip.. hahaha.. i love to bitch

33. Do you want someone you can't have?
- All the time..

34. Who was last to slap your butt?
- I can't recall? But i can remember whose butt i last pinched! Ah Fun.. hahah

35. Where was the last place you went?
- HongKong Cafe at Marina Square.. i have no life..

36. What's on your mind right now?
- Thinking whether i should finish blogging or go to the toilet first.. i kinda need to shit..

37. Have you cried recently?
- Yeah. Last night

38. Have you ever been on a roller
coaster?

- Yeah.. does the "spinning one" count as well? i was screaming n crying at the same time.. how pai seh can i get??

39. Do you care what others think about you?
- No.. Why should i?

40. What do you do all the time in a car?
- Look outside.. hahaha.. slowly spacing out n forgetting that there might be a fren next to me.. [sorry fenny!! hahaa..]

41. Do you trust people easily?
- Yeah.. unless they give me the reason not to..

42. Do you think you'll be married by 10 months?
- HIGHLY IMPOSSIBLE...

44. What do you look forward to in the
next 3 months?
- Nothing much.. juz hope that 2008 would be a good yr for me

45. Who was the last person you called?
- AiLing again..

46 . Who was the last missed call?
- Donson

47. What's your ring tone?
- I hate ringtones.. i rather have it on vibration or silent mode

48. Do you have any pets?
- No. All died.. Crap...

49. What happened at 10.00 am today?
- In the freaking bus, suffering in the cold coz of the rain and the traffic was moving like snails..

50. What were you thinking when you woke up this morning?
- Freak... muz i really get up? I wanna sleeeepppp..

2 more days to go..

i juz can't wait.. Perhaps i will be able to slp earlier coz i won't be that scared at night..

Gawd..

I think i ate too much pineapple.. having a slight gastric right now.. too much acid inside.. trying to drink water but it tastes so bitter... craps..

Anyway..

Fenny, i hope u're feeling better.. stop eating too much maggi, ok? it's not good at all..

Fi, thanks for the ecard.. very sweet of u..

Ah fUn, let's juz keep up the good work.. :) n.. i'm always here if u need someone to chat with in the middle of the night

vOn, not sure if u're gonna see this.. but.. i hope that u'll feel better soon.. u're definitely stronger than u think..

Jon, why can't u juz surprise me? :) N u better not go to hk.. i'll roast u alive..

Cinz, u're not anti-social.. i'm sure u're capable of making new frenz.. juz go beyond the surface, if u get what i mean..

N the rest..

Take care and we'll meet up soon.. dun worry too much abt me. i know myself very well.

had alot that i wanted to blog.. but i lost my interest..

i'm juz tired of things right now...

can't really say how i feel..

the feeling suckz..

anyway.. i dunno why but..

october always reminds me of my grandma [dad's side] that passed away when i was in sec sch..

i guess towards her n my grandpa.. they will be the only two that i really regret not spending enough time n care on.. and i only have myself to blame.

if only i had the mentality to care more abt them when they were alive.. things are so bad at my dad's side that i dun even dare to ask when's their death anniversary..

oh guess what?

i dun even know where they're buried at coz we only went there once.. during the funeral..

i really can understand why my grandma appear to my godsis in KL instead of us..

Anyway~

My parents will be going BKK for one mth.. kinda worried for them.. hopefully, they'll be safe.. in the meantime.. it means FREEDOM to me!!

I better go to bed now.. cya guys

Have been MIA for a week or so...

Sorry to those i didn't reply to smses or calls.. i really didn't have the mood to talk or sms..

Spent the whole time at home.. only stepped out on fri to collect my specs coz my mum wants me to wear it for my cuz's wedding the next day..

The wedding dinner was fun.. saw all my relatives n all.. n saw my baby katleen.. she's so cute.. :) so sweet and gentle.. she juz kept on smiling to everyone.. and her mum asked if i wanna carry and i did.. so soft.. haha.. like a pillow.. she didn't even cry.. her mum said she loves being carried and she doesn't cry when she sees strangers and she tends to smile alot more when ah mas appear.. which is true coz when my grandma appears, katleen was practically grinning like nobody's biz.. my aunt is so lucky to have a baby like katleen, man..

Anyway...

I still dun feel that sociable though.. juz dun feel like meeting anyone yet.. i'll call or sms u guys when i am ready to..

I think i should go for another hair cut soon.. getting quite annoyed by the length..